I suppose you should try some kind of therapy because I’m quite sure your problem is not physical rather than psychological. Once you get it done, your body will fit right in. And it doesn’t matter how you look, you should be happy about it anyway because it’s the body God gave you for some reason. Remember that you’re the one who possess the key to your true happiness, you’re the one who have to decide to take care of yourself. I have no doubt that you will make it 🙂