Hey, I know this is sort of a long story but bear with me on this because I would really appreciate advice. I’m reaching out.

A little background, I am a US citizen, I am in my late twenties. moved to Europe at a young age and ended up having a major accident in 2009 involving traumatic brain injury, amongst others. After a while of hanging on and recovering in Europe I had to return to USA because of lack of funds.

I left the states in the first place because my family is broken, and I’ve never had much of a foundation or stability. Now I am back, but its worse because I had the accident. I’m doing pretty well considering what happened to me though.

When I returned to the states, I met a girl who I completely fell in love with, and made the mistake of putting all my happiness in another person and relying on them for everything. In time the relationship did not work out, and I had nowhere to go, no money saved. Anxiety and depression has kept me from holding a steady job. She didn’t want to see me homeless so she said I could go live with her mom for awhile. But that the relationship is over. I begged, pleaded, did all the stuff that a man should not do ever and am completely ashamed by my behavior, and understand her decision to split, but the damage has been done and that’s over with. I made her my everything and now shes gone. But that’s not the root of the problem, that’s just the straw that broke the camels back.

To make a long story short, I live with her mother in a different town, know nobody, no luck finding a job or a direction to go in. I feel completely lost and helpless. Like its hard to get my head above water. I’ve had frequent panic attacks and major depression and I just don’t know what to do or where to turn. I literally have no one. No support, no family, all my friends are in a different time zone. No health insurance, no savings, nothing. I feel like I’ve been in a constant state of panic and stress for almost a year now. I’ve met some nice people who are friendly and open to talking, and that is great. But I still just don’t know what to do. I feel like I am swimming in the middle of the ocean at night with no land in sight. Basically enveloped in irrational fear that is keeping me from doing anything. I can’t even leave the house sometimes. I need to do something, to find peace, I need to work toward something but I don’t know what it is.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

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