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January 14, 2018 at 4:53 am #186531
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GuestHappy Birthday, Eliana!
Dear Eliana:
In your post you described nothing like happiness, yet I wish you a happy birthday, hoping you can have one moment of happiness in this day, be it as short as it will be. One smile, perhaps. Maybe right now…?
I appreciate you bringing the intestinal dysfunction topic in your last thread and again here. People, including myself, are embarrassed, uncomfortable, feel awkward with our own intestines, especially when they dysfunction as in constipation. It is almost as if… we chose for our body to include intestines and to process food the way it does. As if we chose it and made a bad choice.
We were born that way. We have to be okay with the body we were born with. Doctors as well ignore the issue, dismiss it. It should be brought up, discussed, so to help each other.
You wrote at the beginning of your thread that you rarely ask for anything in return for trying to help others in these Forums. Well, if there is anything you want to ask today, here on your thread, please do.
And again, for at least a moment this special day, have a Happy Birthday!
anita
January 14, 2018 at 5:54 am #186547CarpeDiem
ParticipantHey Eliana,
I have read many posts where you have tried to help you other people and I have always considered you and Anita a great people here on this website.
I wish you a happy birthday and I really hope you feel better. You are a strong person, you have survived through so much and I believe you will survive this ordeal. I am not wise but I think you are very wise person and I feel you can make new friends who will appreciate your presence. Maybe you try to attend few events around like couchsurfing events or internations and meet new people.
Please write more here if you feel like…We are here for youJanuary 14, 2018 at 6:40 am #186549Bubba
ParticipantHappy Birthday Eliana. Today is your day and atleast here in Tiny Buddha world we are all singing Happy Birthday song for you and sending you lots of wishes and peace.
I hope God listens to your prayers and sends you much love and healing. You make a difference in lives of people here.
May this be a year of healing and lose relationships for you.
love
January 14, 2018 at 6:41 am #186551Bubba
Participant*love relationships! ?????????????❤️
January 14, 2018 at 7:41 am #186561Eliana
ParticipantDear Anita, CarpeDiem, and Kindle,
Thank you for your kind and encouraging responses and birthday wishes. It really means alot to me. I will certainly take your advice and hang in there, and try to make better friends. It is very hard to get out, as I don’t have a car, below 0 temperatures, and I live in a small town where there is mostly married people. I want to follow my passion of helping animals and homeless, but when you are constantly not feeling well, always on laxatives, it is hard..but I will try. My case manager keeps pushing me saying I would not be so depressed and lonely if I had purpose. I just can’t afford the money for transportation to the animal sanctuary. She said “I am always making excuses, looking for negatives” which makes me feel worse. I then got a little mad and said “how about you cone and pick me up and drop me off, then no more excuses” she got real quiet.
I managed a smile Anita. ☺
Thank you all for your encouragement. x
January 14, 2018 at 8:04 am #186565Anonymous
GuestDear Eliana:
You are welcome and I am glad you managed a smile!
Keep posting here today, maybe it will cause you to feel less lonely. I hope you get transportation by someone to an animal shelter, maybe someone working there who needs help…?
And again: Happy Birthday!
anita
January 14, 2018 at 8:28 am #186575Hana
ParticipantHello Eliana,
First HAPPY BIRTHDAY, know that you are loved!
Recently I just got tired of doctors experimenting with medications, not-listening or wanting to work with me and decided to seek out an integrative health practitioner who is more willing to do so and to be open to other options like diet, mediation, or natural treatments in addition to traditional medications. They also communicate and coordinate amongst other providers in their organization such as the psychiatric provider and physician working together. Perhaps you could look into this as well? I feel a lot better now eating healthier, eliminating gluten that was causing my body to attack my thyroid, and just the fact that she actually listens and takes a bit more time rather than just telling me what to do has been a big help emotionally.
Also, like anita mentioned, I find that if you open up to people, especially those who work in compassionate jobs like the animal shelter, they might surprise you with their willingness to help, especially for someone else that has such a kind heart and desire to help animals and people. Isn’t it worth a try?
May your day be full of blessings.
Edit: I don’t think God is punishing you. It’s just life, there is both positive and negative and sometimes it feels like there is waaay more negative than positive, but we can find the positive if we look hard, even though it is very difficult in the pain. And those who go through difficult things are often some of the most loving and kind people in this world.
January 14, 2018 at 12:59 pm #186605Eliana
ParticipantThank you Anita, may you be blessed for giving so much compassion, kindness and support on this forum. God bless you.
Hana, Hi..you brought some great topics up. I have looked into this. I really appreciate your kind response. And you are very correct, all of this would most certainly help me, however, I am on SSDI, and Medicare does not pay for these type of interventions. They feel holistic, naturopathic is “not based on medical fact”..even though it would greatly help someone. They won’t pay for a nursing home, dental or vision..even Chiropractic care..if they do, you are only limited to a few adjustments, maybe trigger point injections, that is about it. I am not eligible for Medicae. Advantage plans are too expensive for me, because I would have to pay $45.00 up front co-pay to see a specialist, and I can’t afford it. Regular Medicare if I see a doctor, my co-pay is up front $29.00. If I see a specialist, I get a bill for about $14.10. I am at a loss of what to do. Thank you for your kind response, it means alot to me.
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Eliana.
January 14, 2018 at 1:02 pm #186609Eliana
ParticipantCorrection: the above should read “I am not eligible for Medicaid”.
January 14, 2018 at 7:18 pm #186629VJ
ParticipantJanuary 14, 2018 at 7:45 pm #186633Avi
ParticipantAll love and best wishes on your birthday Eliana. And belated congratulations on your degree and on your brave resolve last April. You’ve accomplished much in your life and helped many people. You’re a lovely lady with a good heart. I hope you feel better soon.
January 14, 2018 at 11:16 pm #186649Brandy
ParticipantDear Eliana,
You are a huge reason why I love this website so much. It’s obvious to me how much you want to help others who are hurting, and your advice always comes from a loving place, in spite of your traumatic childhood, health problems, and the loss of your friendships. What a beautiful quality.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ELIANA!!!
Brandy
January 15, 2018 at 4:36 am #186653Hana
ParticipantHello again,
I hope your birthday had a bit of brightness 🙂
I wasn’t really meaning seeking out some sort of alternative treatment, so much as maybe trying to find yourself a physician that is willing to treat you as a whole person and consider things like diet, supplements (e.g. my provider told me to start taking vitamin d which seems to help with my mood), etc… in addition to/alongside prescriptions if you aren’t having any success with your current treatment. Unfortunately vitamins, pro-biotics, and other supplements aren’t generally covered by insurance if they decide you need them, I know for me it helped just to know one is treated as a person instead of a machine to be fixed even though my provider still had me take a prescription medication as well.
And, animals are great. I pray you can find a way to get to the sanctuary.
January 15, 2018 at 10:34 am #186819Eliana
ParticipantHi VJ,
Thank you for the beautiful birthday card. I’m sorry I could not get this out to you yesterday. I started having problems with my internet connection last night and was unable to get on here. Thank you for brightening my Day. God bless you.
January 15, 2018 at 10:38 am #186821Eliana
ParticipantHi Avi,
Thank you for your kind post. Your words brought me a lot of comfort. Thank you for congratulating me on my degree. And thank you for the compliments. It brought joy to my heart. All of you, made my birthday a bright one. God bless you all. ☺
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