Hey guys! Been a while since my last time here. So, a couple years ago I met this guy in a dating app. Let’s call him “Joe”. At first, I thought Joe was attractive, besides, he’s a doctor…So am I. When we talked, I thought our chat was boring and non-productive, he used to be a yes/no/maybe guy…in that time we didn’t know each other in person so it was easy for me to stop replying to his monosyllable texts. A couple of weeks later he followed me on Instagram and added me as a Facebook friend. Occasionally, Joe texted me…and started to insist on having a date; since I was bored at the time, I accepted. We got along really well, unlike the “Cyber-Joe” he had a lot of conversation, was really kind and a gentleman. After some dates, we officially started like, really dating hahahaha I was excited and saw a lot of future for us as a couple.

One day, he invited me to a Halloween costume party made by his hospital friends but couldn’t made it because I was on call on that day. Days after the party, things between us got cold and I didn’t understand why. I got really anxious and decided to confront me and ask “Hey, is it everything OK? I think you’ve been acting weird and distant”, long story short he texted me that he bumped into a girl that he was into a long time ago in the party, and that he wanted to have a chance with her. He literally told me he didn’t want to be an asshole and date two girls at the same time. I felt when my heart raised, and my face got hot. I WAS MAD, I WAS HURTED….I just could answer him “OK”.

A few months later, I got in a relationship (it was a quick one) and when Joe noticed so, he started to text me again and constantly remind me that I wasn’t single and he was. At first, I didn’t mind at all and felt some kind of satisfaction because he looked for me again.

Then, feelings for him hit me right in the face. I still, was into him and my mind never stopped asking where was I wrong? Why did he like me so much and then just leave? My ego and soul are hurt by the day. I’ve been speaking to my therapist a lot about this, this kind of rejection really get me.

Last Thursday, we met again, we had dinner and wine. Again, conversation and the time together was pleasant and fun. I really like him, he is finishing his medical residence and he’s been clear that he is busy most of time and doesn’t want to get envolved into a serious relationship. My mind in some way, understands it. But, Im still hurt. I don’t know why does he still looking for him all the time, tells me I’m pretty and he is very attracted to me.

I get his mixed signals, and, I don’t know what should I do next to stop feeling hurt by the way he acts. At sometimes, It feels that he is just in the hunt, and I’m no longer a challenge to him.

Thanks for reading guys.

Love, M.