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  • April 9, 2017 at 8:12 pm #144329
    Anonymous
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    Dear Patricia Hart:

    You mentioned an abusive childhood, being unloved by your mother (“It’s hard to take a good look at yourself and realize that you weren’t loved as a child”). And you feel that you weren’t loved as an adult either. It is true: there is not enough love in the world, and when you start your life with unloving parents, it sets the stage for dysfunction.

    It is important to evaluate a candidate for a relationship before doing the “hiring”- to learn who the man is before getting involved, take notes if it helps, over time. If you do consider a relationship in the future study him first. Make sure he is able and willing to love another person, that he already has a loving history.

    It is not too late…

    anita

    April 11, 2017 at 3:35 pm #144629
    philozopher
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    Hi Patricia,

    I have just registered (after hovering for a couple of weeks) to reply to your message as it struck a chord with me. I have just been dumped for a third time by a man with narcissistic tendencies – yes, I did allow myself to go back to this man after he broke it off with me twice before! Each time lasted a two years before the emotional abuse got so out of control that he finished with me blaming me for everything. So, first of all, well done to you for recognising the abuse and breaking free of it yourself. I am currently beating up on myself for allowing myself to waste 6 years of my life on this man. I am 45 btw so feel as if I have given away my last childbearing /marriageable years believing he would change.

    Another element that resonated with me was the fact that I too had a narcissistic mother. She died a long time ago and I have had a lot of therapy over the years to deal with the emotional abuse from that relationship. And so, now, I find I am grieving on a scale that is overwhelming because issues from my past are also coming up. I am currently seeing a counsellor and a spiritual healer and it is helping me identify my issues both from the past with my mother and my addiction to men who are emotionally abusive and incapable of loving me as I deserve.

    I nearly cried when I saw that you wrote: “It’s hard to take a good look at yourself and realise that you weren’t loved as a child or as an adult” because I feel exactly the same right now. But are you sure that you don’t even have friends who love you? I know that I do and I am trying to reconnect with them…one at a time. I am writing a journal every day and filling it with positive affirmations, even if it is just a hug from someone. I have to tell myself every day that my life is not over, that people meet people that love them every day, that it all starts with loving myself. Love yourself and the rest will follow. It has only been a month since my break up and some days I am crying all day but I am also letting a whole lot of other issues out. Please don’t beat up on yourself.

    All the best

    E

    April 12, 2017 at 8:51 am #144713
    Jennifer
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    Hey Patricia,

     

    Your share is really beautiful and I identify with so much, especially the difficulty in looking over your past and the relationships held there. I’ve found that the growth is in the awareness and acceptance of the past. I must first become aware, which I avoided for years because it was painful. Once aware, I couldn’t become un-aware, so acceptance was the key. One of the best things I heard someone say was “I must give up all hope of a better past if I wish to have a peaceful now”.

     

    I also have gotten bogged down with labels, co-dependent, alcoholic, you name it.  But I believe those behaviors are a symptom of that pain, operating on a level just below consciousness. Once aware we get the opportunity to change.

     

    I have become aware of many things and can look over my past at the recurrent and destructive patterns and truly feel compassion for the child in me. And frequently I continue the behavior well after awareness….and that is okay.

     

    Its wonderful to have found this site and see other people seeking to grow. You have so much to offer, you’ve certainly offered much to me in sharing!

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