Dear Gighi,
Our stories can be totally different, but we all get very trapped in our situation at some point in our life. And it’s hard to see a way out. Hence, a friend who offers a different perspective is always nice. I hope I can do just a little of that today. What I see you in you is lots of potentials. You have dreams. You have abilities. You are just in a difficult living situation right now. Positive thoughts always work when they are coupled with actions and perseverance. You can go out for walks or runs – these physical activities always help keep me in lighter spirit and then more positive thoughts and actions follow. What you have is time and freedom. You have no attachments. You can do whatever you want to do. If you want to travel the world, do that – google “how to travel the world for free” – I remember watching that somewhere. Through this journey, you will probably find many opportunities, many insights, … Embrace some change. I read somewhere that if we don’t make some changes, we can’t expect different result. There is always hope. Be in company of hopeful people, even if it’s just online. You’ve already on a good path reaching out to others here! You have it within you to become the best person you can be. Good luck with your journey. You will be alright if you keep believing that.
Namaste!