Dear Anita,

Yes of course! No need to worry. Have a great day ahead 😀

Dear Anita,

I did, I read it, I read all my posts actually… I feel nothing. I feel sympathy for the person writing it, like I would for a sweet, sad teenage girl that is in love with a classmate who doesn’t love or respect her. And then I feel like punching that idiot classmate in the stomach (not literally of course). In the beginning it felt like 2 different Sofioulas, but now, it feels like a completely different entity wrote those posts and not me.

I’ve been “sober” from my ex consistently now, to the point where I don’t give a single crap about his existence. Sober from all my self judgment, sober from oppressing my feelings, sober from perfectionism. I truly say to you, I feel I was born recently. It literally feels I’m alive, that I just landed on this place and body. Now I realize how truly detached I was from my being.

Anita, I can’t even begin to describe it. It’s not limbo, it’s not rainbows, sunshine and sparkle. It’s plain reality and it feels so damn good!!! Even the everyday struggles, boredom, confrontation, yes even tears. I accept all that. I accept, I stopped loathing in regrets and self criticism, in self victimization. Deep relief that’s unshakable because I know, negative emotions don’t shake you, rather they are shaping you and it’s a crucial part of our existence.

My motto would be “decriminalize emotions”. Especially so called unwanted ones. Living in utopia is more self restrictive than reality. You always compete with perfection and you lose touch with your identity.

I’m a Christian Orthodox and deeply believe in Jesus. But I learn about Buddhism and Buddha, have so much respect and it influences my life in a meaningful way. I used to think that Buddha wanted elimination of suffering and critiquing it. But to my understanding now is that he talked of pointless, self inflicted suffering. What is your opinion on this?