Hi Sandra. Deeply sorry to hear your story. One thing that shouts out to me is that you must be incredibly strong to go through all that and still love. So let that be a strength of your character and not something you should be ashamed or think you are a bad person. I have gone through some troubled experiences in the last 6 months and I too felt like this life is so unjust. All I can say to you is that Yoga, meditation and reiki attunements has helped me greatly to gain control of my inner being and accept that I cannot control. Others nor this world around me even if what I want for them is with good intentions and out of love. Focus all that love you have for the other person and challenge it inside of you towards yourself. U deserve your own love first, do not give it out to others until you channel it to yourself first. This will protect you and allow you channel out a healthy love. And when you channel that healthy love out events and people will form around you who will promote those feelings further. Here and there you will get tested but it will be no where near as painful as before because you have that love surrounding your heart and protecting yourself. You don’t need anyone to do it for you and nor can anyone bear that responsibility but ourselves. Sending you love and courage to live in the present moment, see the beauty in simplicity and open your heart truly to yourself. Xx Aysha