Kayla,

I’m sorry for the spinning, and hope you find peace soon. Consider reading “Facing Codependence” by Pia Mellody. Her book might help you find healthy ways of caring for yourself, which to me seems at the heart of your difficulties. The spinning in circles seems to be a symptom of that. For instance, sometimes when we have a nutrient imbalance, we remain hungry all the time. Its not that the body “just needs food” but it needs a specific type of food that its not getting. In your case, it seems that the food your body needs is loving kindness… which develops as we act in a way that is gentle and caring to our mind and body.

With warmth,
Matt