The bright side is you’re not the only one who thinks that. I have been through a similar experience where I started becoming delusional and started to hate everyone and everything around me. This probably doesn’t make any sense to you, as I’m in my own little world. Things doesn’t look so positive or upbeat from where I currently stand. I’m currently jobless, no friends whatsoever, and every humanity that seems to want to take a step towards me, I push them away…. and I just don’t know why…. or they seem to limit themselves… it seems???? I just can’t seem to trust people like I used to or whether the life I’m living is real or not real. ……. This all to say that… life gets difficult sometimes and sometimes you’re just stuck. I don’t think there there’s any way around that. The advice is up to you. You can either lose all hope …. or….. somehow miraculously turn things around. Soooo at this point, good luck to you! Do you know when all this started to happen, after I started reading horoscopes… so stay away…..