That is a powerful goal and worthy of all of your efforts! I know things are tough right now, but look at how much you are already accomplishing. Progress is really just a matter of forward momentum, so you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will get to where you need to be. The most successful people aren’t the ones who are the most talented, they are the ones who are the most dedicated. If it truly is your dream, then you have to keep your mind away from those worries and negative thoughts, practice some positive thinking and get your mind focused on what you need to do. The reason you can’t see the path is because you are letting the cloud of negativity and worry about your future block your vision. Focus on moving forward and how it is going to feel when you accomplish your goal, don’t waste any time or energy on negative thinking, it doesn’t get us anywhere! I highly suggest diving into some deep meditation and getting back control of your thoughts, because that is the only way you are going to keep your mind disciplined enough to stay the course. I know you can do it, just keep moving forward! This website will continue to be an amazing source of strength for you. Also, I wrote two articles on my website that I think will help you get back on course. The first link is a simple meditation to get you back in control of your thoughts, and the second is an exercise that will let you use that new focus to find your way. Both of these exercises have changed my life, so I know they will help you if you commit to them. You will find your way, just stay the course, the path to success is paved in potholes!

-Dave

http://personal-growth-project.com/ten-minutes-to-a-better-mind/
http://personal-growth-project.com/the-mental-diet-challenge-1/