For me life is just going on with time. Maybe my attitude is wrong, but the experiences which i have got throughout my Life, avoids me to expect anything from life. This is not a state of depression in which i am speaking, but a normal state of mine. The only thing which i expected the most in my life is Love( pure love). I have got it from some people , but they expected something or the other from me always in return. When i understand that their love is fake, then my heart gets broken.

I am basically a simple and less talking kind of a person. I believe in quality in relationships which i have, even though it is few. I would like to share a short summary of my life and would love to get some suggestions and advice from you all.

My dad and mom don’t like to express love towards me , even though they have it, for me. My dad expresses his love for me through his money he has spend throughout his life for me,and always talks in terms of money he has sacrificed for me. I never remember if he has ever hugged me or told some loving and caring words towards me. And my mom also has almost the same kind of attitude towards me. The attachment factor is almost missing between me and my parents, even though we have love for each other deep inside. I tried to get some love outside my family, and that resulted into an affair. An affair which hurted me the most till date. The affair lasted for two years but she left me as she got better marriage opportunities. It became late for me to realize that she was utilizing me and i was under the influence of her fake love. I was ready to face anything to spend my entire life with her, so much i loved her. The depression after i the breakup lasted for more than a year. My career was almost broken, but i faced life and my career became back on track. Still i am searching for that unselfish and pure love, which i never got till date… Don’t know if ever i would succeed in it , but that is the only motivation for which i am still alive.