I’m a Christian but I don’t believe in hell, I believe in God’s love and forgiveness and Christ promised that even the criminal who was crucified next to him would be in “paradise”. I believe we will all experience that paradise in our next life, that’s my belief and I will stay true to it.

Like this website I found says, even the worst of people at the worst of times were not condemned to hell. I also hold the belief that not everything in the bible is the word of God. Just live with love in your heart, do your best to cope with any pain you experience and find people, grow connections and have friends and places you can go to that reaffirm your positive beliefs.

Here’s the link, hope you find it useful in dispelling that Christian wrath of God that has been used by too many, even if you are now a buddhist.

http://www.thehypertexts.com/No%20Hell%20in%20the%20Bible.htm

I’ve had to learn again that the way I was brought up was not right. My mother, although she meant well, sort of built God up to be something I should fear. Whenever I did something bad she would say things like, God is watching you, be careful because God sees what you’re doing. I held onto that for so much of my life. But I don’t believe that was ever true.

I don’t believe that God holds onto resentment. I think even the worst of people will be made right when they meet God.

I myself don’t believe in reincarnation/multiple lives but I respect everyone’s beliefs. Hope you can overcome your fear and just live authentically.