Cheyenne,
I was unable to find your previous posts, so I don’t fully understand your situation, but I have recently come to believe that anyone who feels genuinely sorry for their past mistakes deserves forgiveness. We are human beings; we make mistakes. I recently made a big mistake that caused a major upset in my life, but the people who really matter have stuck by me and have reminded me that my mistakes don’t have to define me. I recently read a really powerful quote. It said, “Forget it enough to let it go, but remember it enough so that it doesn’t happen again.” You’re right…it’s a new year, and it’s time for a fresh start. You have tried to apologize for your mistake…that’s all you can do. Whether or not someone wants to accept it is their business. You cannot control other people’s actions, only your own. If you truly regret your mistake, make a vow to never repeat it, and do all you can to forgive yourself. Trust me…I know this is easier said than done. But every day is a new opportunity to turn your life around, to become a better person, and to let go of the past. Another great quote: “When the past comes calling, send it straight to voicemail. It has nothing new to say.” Best wishes to you, my fellow human being and mistake-maker. We are works in progress…may we only get better with time.