Sarah
I was on an anti depressant about 2 years ago and it didn’t work well for me. Just to give u some background about me. I don’t even take pain killers for cramps or headaches. I go for a run when I get sick so taking something mind altering was beyond my comfort level. I got off of it and being in a relationship, I stop therapy as well. Fast forward to now, relationship ended badly and I was in pieces. I am seeing a holistic psychologist who recommends a healthy diet and lifestyle before prescribing medicine but given my awful state two months ago, she prescribed a medicine for mood disorder which is a mild form of bipolar disorder. I have been on this medicine for about two months now but due to real soul searching, meditating, healthy eating, exercising, reading, being nurturing and kind to myself and doing all the things everyone on this site has recommended, I was told to stop taking the medicine whenever I feel like it. I am choosing not to do so right now as I am still very fragile and don’t wasn’t to agitate my mind. I will stop taking it as soon as I am well mentally.
What I am trying to say is please research all that you can about anything you will be taking. Sometimes these medicines save lives as mental disorders are as serious if not more than physical disorders. Try to find a kind, holistic doctor who can give u natural alternatives to medicines, if there are any.
Don’t ever hesitate to improve your life however you can. You will know when a medicine is not a right fit for you.

Good luck with everything.