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September 30, 2014 at 6:04 pm #65831VanessaParticipant
So I’m dating someone…and he’s the most amazing guy I’ve ever met. The other day though, I lied to him about something pretty serious. I began to feel guilty, so I admitted to lying to him. He wasn’t really mad then, but he hasn’t talked to him and it seems like we’re strangers. I’ve been driving my self crazy, because I’m dying to talk to him. I really hope that he doesn’t hate me. My mind has been going crazy, and I try to encourage myself…but it seems all in vain. I keep going to throwing hate on myself for what I did, waiting desperately at my phone for him to contact me…and crying alllll the time. For the past few days, I’ve done almost nothing but lay in bed and cry. I miss him so much, and I don’t want to lose him…but I think I already did…I’m so lost, and I don’t know what to do! What do I do? How do I get out of my head? How do I move on? How do I accept the consequences of my actions and accept myself?
September 30, 2014 at 8:56 pm #65833NeaParticipantwhat was it that you lied about?
September 30, 2014 at 9:16 pm #65835aliveParticipantI was also dating this amazing person for a few months, many months before i went out with a friend of his. He had asked me many times if I had anything to do with this person, and of course i denied everything. This person felt great and gave me those few moments of bliss. I knew in my heart that this was not meant to last, So I decided to break off this weird relationship. I explained that this relationship felt unhealthy, he then confronted this other person.. and of course as a MAN he HAD to say that yes in fact we were involved and that it was much more than a friendship. So now this great guy who I knew was totally wrong for me has discovered that I lied to him. It has been 4 days now and I am still trying to forgive myself. I feel terrible for his feelings. I never meant to hurt him but I also explained to him that I was not ready for a relationship. But I did fall in love with him… I have accepted that he now hates me and thinks I am the worst being ever. Why did I allow this to happen?? I am a loving being. I never meant to hurt anyone and now here I find myself misleading.. I am so ashamed…
October 1, 2014 at 9:05 pm #65887aliveParticipanthaving sex with the other person
October 5, 2014 at 5:56 pm #66018aliveParticipantAfter many nights of personally mind torturing myself, I finally had one too many glasses of wine. Called my ex-male friend and sobbing, explained that it was never my intention to hurt him. I explained that I was not looking to get back together but only needed his forgiveness. after about two days he finally texted me saying that he does forgive me and due to passed events he no longer wanted anything to do with me. He also made it very clear that he does have strong feelings for me and that he was looking for much more. At that moment I felt free again, I do love him but in my heart it always felt wrong. I never understood the term impossible love until today. I Free you B! Because I love you I set you free. Thank you great CREATOR for the experience. Always very greatful
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