Thank you michelle for sharing your story with me. Wow what you said about how your relationship started really resonated with me, it was almost a mirror to mine and B’s. I felt exactly the same, and it was also a real low point in my depression, I’d also just lost my home and someone close to me and I was very stressed, depressed and anxious. B was very flirty and as soon as we connected he made me feel So loved. He promised me everything and even said he was going to work to get the love out of me. Because I had explained that I can be closed off. I was so honest with him from the start, I told him all about my depression and anxiety and told him that if he wanted to walk away now, then I understood. He said I was worth the extra work though and that’s when I started falling in love. So many red flags that I ignored though. I feel like an idiot but I know it’s not my fault. The thing I miss about him most is the way i thought he loved me; it was all a lie though. His words told me they loved me his actions did not. He’s really screwed with my heart and head, I just hope he hasn’t set me back. I’ve really been working on myself lately trying to feel some self love and worth. I’m trying not to let him knock that back down and I’m really trying not to throw the brick wall back up around my heart. That’s the only thing to come out of this…for the first time in my life I’ve actually opened my heart up and i’ve dealt with a hell of a lot of feelings and emotions that id shut out for years and were crippling me. I really thought id found ‘the one’ with him though 🙁 I feel exhausted by it all now and a little lost. I’m fed up of feeling this way. Not an hour goes by that I don’t cry and that i don’t feel that awful gut wrenching heart ache pain, it’s making day to day life very hard atm

Thank you Anita and michelle. I’ve blocked him completely now incase he tries to contact me again, I cannot do this anymore despite how hard it is. I still work where I met him (thankfully he no longer does) and it’s so hard as so much reminds me of him there. A lot of the ‘firsts’ between us. Do you think that I would be foolish to look for a new job? I’m not sure if it’s being too dramatic. Atm though it’s killing me this week going in every day. I can’t seem to escape him – at home or at work everything reminds me of him

Hi 🙂 I’m really struggling today. I felt okay over the weekend, the pain was still there but I felt I had accepted that the relationship had come to an end and felt a certain positivity about it. However as soon as I woke up this morning I felt that crushing feeling again. Haven’t stopped thinking of him all day and had to stop myself crying a few times. On my lunchbreak when I checked my phone he had messaged me for the first time since I cut contact saying “I can’t stop thinking of you” I was elated and before I even thought about it I had replied saying I felt the same. Lots of thoughts were racing through my mind, we always seemed to be feeling or thinking the same while we were in a relationship, it was uncanny. Hearing him mirror what I had been going through all morning really got to me.  I was left feeling that he is definately the one, my soul mate etc etc. However he’s read it and not responded. I feel utterly down and heartbroken again. I feel again, like I don’t know where I stand with him. All my resolve and positivity has vanished. I miss him so much it hurts. Why would he say that if he didn’t mean it? I’m finding it hard to understand his motives. Should I message and ask him why he sent that?

You are both correct, thank you again for your input. I’m going to try and work on myself to help me get over him, instead of relying on his (or anyone elses) love and attention to feel better about myself. I’ve booked a Drs appointment to discuss my anxiety and depression 🙂