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  • #40139
    Buddhist Wife
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    Hi Kumo,

    I’m sorry to hear you are having such anxiety.

    You probably would benefit from seeing a professional therapist. Therapy can be very useful for talking through issues such as these.

    There are some hard truths that we all have to accept. One of them is that we cannot always rely on others to be there for us. This includes family members as much as it does friends. Relationships are constantly in flux. Some will grow, others will wither.

    I think the trick is learning to live with that doubt and be happy despite it.

    Human beings are social animals by our very nature. Our fear of being rejected and not part of the group runs deep because it is a key survival instinct. I think you will get very frustrated with yourself if you keep trying to get to a point where you feel no anxiety around this, because I think that is unattainable for all of us.

    What you want to avoid is allowing this anxiety to overwhelm you to the point where you become non functional.

    If I were you, I would stop trying to work against my own nature. It seems to me, from what you have written, that you are a quieter person who enjoys socialising one on one or in smaller groups of a couple of people. There is nothing wrong with this at all. Some of us are quiet, some of us are more gregarious. We need a balance of these different sort of people in society or there would just be a lot of people shouting at each other!

    So I would suggest that at the times you are feeling a bit overwhelmed, try socialising in smaller groups or on a one on one level. Invite your friends for a coffee or cup of tea, or a stroll in the park. Just low key activities that you enjoy.

    When you are in situations where you are socialising in larger groups, don’t feel bad because you are not the life and soul of the party. I think it was Jane Austen who described a dinner party as being very successful because, and I’m paraphrasing here, ‘it was made up of those who would talk and those who would listen’. It strikes me that you fall into the later group belonging to those who would listen.

    So I would try to focus on your good qualities. Be the person who listens to others! There certainly are not enough of those to go around and you will be very popular if you do.

    Finally I wouldn’t put too much stock into whether or not people respond to texts, Facebook messages and emails. It seems to me that because these are relatively new inventions we are all unclear what the etiquette is around responding to these.

    I think it is very likely that when people don’t respond, it is not because they don’t like you or that they are being malicious, but that they are busy or forget. I imagine this happens 9999 out of 10,000.

    We all need to get out into the world and start responding to each other in person more.

    I wish you the best

    #40172
    Anonymous
    Inactive

    Friend Kumo,

    I found myself about to say many of the things that Buddhist Wife said in response to your post. As I read about your social interactions and your interpretation I kept asking myself, “where is the problem?” The truth is what you are describing is something that most everyone I know has admitted to experiencing on some level. There are SO many interactions that occur that I know I miss the entire meaning of. That is the nature of communication and also is evidence of the complex nature of human beings. We contain so many disparate and conflicting parts and these nuances get expressed in our daily communication whether we are aware of them being expressed or not. “Micro-expressions” are expressions which occur in a matter of a second and are undetectable by the human eye – we’re not aware that we have detected them – but emotionally we have reacted to them. People are very complex and many of the people you see that are the “life of the party” and seem to take center stage in social interactions do so because they have been in the habit of doing so and have done so for a very long time. I think you would make a lot more progress with this if you first work on having more compassion for yourself and your actions. Instead of being critical and beat yourself up, try and befriend yourself in those difficult situations and tell yourself, “you’re ok – you’re ok doing what you’re doing”.

    Be peaceful my friend,
    -J.D.

    #40194
    chupacabra
    Participant

    Hi Kumo,
    I’m a really quiet person around people I don’t know or trust. In the past, if I could find one or two people I trusted, it was so nice to be able to open up and be myself, but finding those individuals got harder and harder as I got older. And I always found a reason to stop trusting those people, so I’m afraid all I can offer you is empathy, not advice. I think I am more sensitive than the average person, meaning that I take things way too personally, and my life would be a lot easier if I just let some things go, but I never seem to be able to do that. On the plus side of being overly sensitive, it does make me a better listener because I can feel what the other person is feeling when they are telling me about it, and usually understand them better than other people who hear the same thing. So it’s a strength and weakness. It can endear you to people, because you really “get” their situation, but having been burned so many times by people I allowed to get close to me because they felt this connection, I don’t really allow it anymore. I still listen, empathize, and treat everyone with respect, but I know my limitations. I cannot handle close friendships because they are too painful when things go bad, and things will inevitably go bad for someone as sensitive as me. Fortunately, I do trust my family – most of the time 😉 It’s okay to give your family a piece of your mind when they tick you off – they’re your family and they have to stick with you. At least, that’s what I believe. Friends – no such guarantee, so tick them off at your own risk. I lost all the ones I ticked off, and for good reason. I was being too sensitive. Anyhow, I hope this was not totally unhelpful. I hope you write again.
    Your FRIEND,
    Chupacabra

    #40204
    Frank Singam
    Participant

    Hi Kumo,

    The fact that you are willing to be vulnerable to talk about this issue that is troubling you, is good. You are in touch with yourself, your emotions, and you are being constructive in trying to find a way out.

    It is not easy to get through a day not being able to trust people. it leaves you alone and without the social support we all need.

    I suspect that there are issues from your childhood experiences that is causing this impasse. You have an injunction bred into your psyche – ‘don’t trust’. You need to figure out when this happened,, talk about it, and re-decide how you intend to overcome it. I suggest strongly that you seek help from a therapist who is good at ‘Re-Decision Therapy’. Such a therapist will take you back to your early years, establish your relationships with male and female authoritative figures and help you determine what happened to make you decide unconsciously that you ‘will not trust’ people. The therapist may use a -two-chair technique to help you deal with the figures in your past that developed this impasse.

    Meantime to help you cope better, I suggest you get into mindfulness activities – meditation, yoga, exercise. These will help you take control of your thoughts and help you focus on the present, rather than on the past or the future. There must be many good things that happen to you on a daily basis – all you need to do is to focus on them. You can read more on mindfulness activities from the web.

    I hope these recommendations help. You have strong personal resources, because you are seeking a way out. Trust in your abilities, and you will do just fine.

    Beast whshes,
    Shogun.

    #40961
    Ruben
    Participant

    Hey Kumo,

    I can understand in a way what you’re going through. Your post is almost how my life was. I remember being very subconscious about whether or not I fit in, having trouble making actual friends, being sensitive to off-the-cuff statements or remarks. I would watch the people around me to see if I was acting the right way, getting the right response, saying the right thing. Being terrified that someone could find out that I’m anxious or depressed and then leaving me because of it. It’s difficult to not be anxious or depressed when you have all of these fears.

    Being bullied is always very difficult to go through. Feelings of social anxiety are very common after unfortunate situations like that. You seem to have a belief that there is something wrong with you, and that’s not true at all. There is nothing wrong with you. These feelings that you are experiencing are normal for any person to have.

    Also, it’s okay to ask for help and rely on others. That’s what most people do to understand their problems. I believe that your suggestion to see a professional is a good idea. In the mean time, if you would like to talk to someone, I would be happy to help. Although, I am not a psychologist or a psychiatrist myself, I have gone through your exact situation and ended up finding answers to those same questions you ask and becoming comfortable with people and being happy with who I am. So if you would like help finding answers and understanding your situation, feel free to email me at Clajoie94@gmail.com

    I don’t want you to feel pressured to email me if you don’t want to. I only want to help you because I know what it’s like to want to solve your depression by yourself because you’re afraid of what your people would think. But the choice is up to you.

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