it’s late but I wanted to reply
I studied dance for fifteen years and then had a terrible car wreck. My fitness kept me unparalyzed and alive, but, there was no more dancing. I became extremely depressed and angry (my mother was high when she broke my back). It took years, therapy (some of which was comped, alot of which came from students in internships) yoga, swimming, physical therapy. But, through all of that I learned to sit. I learned tremendous amounts about the Self, and how other people’s see the life system and it’s goals. In retrospect if I had not had that accident, I would not be me. I have three great kids, a great education, and an incredible appreciation for little stuff. I love food, dancers don’t get to eat! at all! I love movies, I love books, I spend glorious time with my Self. I feel the chi in every millimeter of my body. I’ve learned over years to push it around with my mind. I changed my religion. I moved to the other coast. I moved back and forth twice. I spent a summer in Ireland with my three year old with no money and no plans. We had a blast. Find something to do tomorrow. Something you really love. Do something every day to love yourself. It’s a long road. But, it is worth travelling.