DearĀ Isra:
You described theĀ careĀ package you prepared so thoughtfully. I wish IĀ couldĀ prepare a careĀ package for you, toĀ take with you because you may notĀ post here again, so you indicated in your recent post.
In that care package I would put a self-doubt calming perfume. Every time you do something good forĀ another and then doubtĀ yourself, you can open that perfume bottle and let the aromaĀ calm your brain and bring a smileĀ to your face.
That perfume will calmĀ thatĀ “perpetual battle” with yourself, “over what feelsĀ like the right thing for (you) to do”, and bring you clarity and the calm thatĀ comesĀ with clarity.
It would be a veryĀ small care package.
anita