Hi Lauren,

Without digging any deeper, I get the feeling there has been some situation in the last couple of years that has happened to you.

You seem to have a strong desire/connection to guys who are older than you, and a need to be loved and accepted. This, no doubt, would have arose from certain circumstances but that is not the important issue here.

You also seem to have a fear of putting your mother under undue stress?

Anyway, without going into your past I think I have some advice that will hopefully help a little.

First of, and probably the hardest step – you need to realise that the situation you are in; isn’t your fault. That may seem weird hearing as I don’t know you or whatever you have been though, but from experience it’s important to first realise it isn’t your fault, and you certainly do not deserve to be feeling how you feel.

Secondly, a little phrase you may want to read a few times “We are what we love, not what loves us back.” (Sorry I really can’t remember if it’s from a song/quote/speech).

Next up, and probably a point you might not like, you are only 15. I’m not making this point as an excuse to say “cheer up” etc, but rather to bring up the point that – you still have the chance to do everything you desire and wish to achieve. Ironically, today’s quote is: “Never forget: This very moment, we can change our lives. There never was a moment, and never will be, when we are without the power to alter our destiny.” ~Steven Pressfield

Following on from that, it isn’t a sign of weakness to admit you haven’t got everything sorted out. I’m 21 and I still feel like a kid. I get the impression you have grown up very fast and perhaps the pressure has been on you to act older than you are – but you are still a kid, so don’t feel bad for asking your mum for help. You’re her child, she would do anything to help you be happy, give it a chance.

I hope this has helped a little, you seem very confused and it’s come at me really fast so hard to get my head around!

Although not a quick fix, there is something that I think might be able to help a little? You seem like you are a very “emotional” person? You go through a lot of mood swings, either really happy or sad and depressed, and a lot of the time your sad is when your mother is home with you? I don’t know if you are a spiritual person or not – I wasn’t, but the more things happen, the more spiritual I’m getting…
I might guess that a lot of your sadness and lack of motivation and confusion isn’t entirely all yours, and a lot of the pressures and hardship of life that your mother feels, you are soaking it up. I’d really suggest you do some reading on some meditation. You don’t have to sit around and hum, but just find something where you can clear your mind and block everything else out. By blocking out other people’s emotions you might find a bit of clarity and feel a bit happier?

I’m sorry for the stuff that you have gone through, you really didn’t deserve it.

Hi Lauren,

You are young and need to deal with depression now before it becomes a bigger issue into adulthood.

Please read the following short article – it will help get you:

http://www.wikihow.com/Overcome-Depression

God bless !