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  • August 25, 2017 at 9:10 am #165578
    Anonymous
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    Dear Felix:

    Your marriage has been troubled for a long time, I know from reading your previous threads since a year and a half ago, or so. I wonder if this change, the ending of your marriage, will lead to you and your pooch maybe moving out of Los Angeles. You repeatedly expressed before how tired you are of the rat race, the high cost of living in LA, the mighty dollar attitude to life.

    Maybe it is time to move to a quieter place, you and your dog. Although the mighty-dollar attitude does reach the farthest parts of the world (it does…)- yet, you may find a more rat-race-free, peaceful pocket of the world to call home.

    anita

    August 25, 2017 at 9:34 am #165586
    Felix
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    Thank you Anita. I may move, but not right now. I have a great job and there are other things, obligations, that are holding me back. I may just move, but down the road. Right now, I can’t move period. I mean I can’t move. I am frozen, paralyzed, in so much pain that I don’t see how I can survive this and even if I can, I don’t know if I want to. I don’t live for her, I am very independent, but she was special and I simply cannot imagine my life without her. I am about to turn 40 and my life is over. I can’t go on anymore, at least not right now. She and everyone else says that things get better, time heals, and all that good stuff, but that’s not how things work in the real world. In the real world, pain doesn’t always go away. I’ve just started this journey and I don’t know which stage of grief I am currently in, but I simply cannot imagine my life going forward. I have nothing left. Nothing. Please forgive me for sounding so gloom, but I am covered in total darkness. This pain is the only thing I feel =(

    August 25, 2017 at 10:22 am #165612
    Anonymous
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    Dear Felix:

    You are welcome. no need to apologize for your feelings, for “sounding so gloom.. covered in total darkness”- this is how you feel and you don’t choose your feelings, so no wrong doing to apologize for.

    You wrote that you “have nothing left”- but you do have “a great job”, you wrote in this post. And you have this dog you love so much.

    You wrote: “she was special and I simply cannot imagine my life without her”- interesting, you didn’t express her being special in your life before, and the life you did detail in previous threads, the life with her, read like a life better imagined alone. One such memory that comes to my mind is when you brought her flowers, was it, a special occasion and how miserable that occasion turned out to be. There was lots of dissatisfaction in this marriage that you expressed for a long, long time.

    You wrote: “pain doesn’t always go away”- not without attentive, purposeful, ongoing work, a journey of sorts. Pain otherwise shifts its focus:  it was there with you before throughout great dissatisfaction with your marriage, work, societal attitudes that you expressed in previous threads, and it is with you now, focusing on an ending of a marriage (although miserable for a long time).

    anita

     

    August 25, 2017 at 9:58 pm #165690
    Felix
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    I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I seriously don’t. I am not giving up or anything. I just don’t see the light.

    August 26, 2017 at 8:04 am #165738
    Anonymous
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    Dear Felix:

    Maybe there is no light in the particular tunnel you are in. Maybe you can retrace your steps, get out of this tunnel and … choose a different tunnel with light at the end of it…

    anita

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