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December 18, 2018 at 11:43 am #269879
Ik09
Participantalso, It was 7 months when I started dating, now it’s been 9 and a half months… I have been dating my current guy for 2 and a half months.
December 18, 2018 at 12:22 pm #269895Anonymous
GuestDear IpkR09:
Welcome back! I will be able to read and reply to your thread when I am back to the computer in about sixteen hours. I hope other members answer you before I return.
anita
December 18, 2018 at 7:57 pm #269923Ik09
ParticipantI wilI patiently wait Anita and to others, you are welcome to help me out as well…will be a great help.
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December 19, 2018 at 9:51 am #269991Anonymous
GuestDear IpkR09:
I took some time to re-read your posts on your previous thread. There are a few topics worthy of addressing regarding that thread and this, being the same topic. I will address only one for now, and that is the issue of your sister.
Regarding your ex boyfriend, you wrote in your previous thread: “My sister met him and she said he loved me very much and he is very serious regarding you”. On this thread you wrote about your sister: “She never approved of any of my past relationships. None of them”- so I suppose she approved of your ex boyfriend and then she changed her mind and disapproved, correct?
On your current thread you wrote regarding the current man in your life that he asked her permission regarding dating you, she told him it is okay with her, that he should call you to ask you out and then told you to refuse him (“my sister agreed when she talked to him and asked him to call me directly and ask me out this evening… Once she got off the call with him, she asked to deny his date request when he calls. She did not want me to go out with him”).
So, she didn’t want you to go out with him and went about it dishonestly, not wanting him to know that it is she who was refusing the date. She wants to control you but she doesn’t want him, her friend, to know she is the one making your decision. I suppose she feels it is wrong of her to decide for you, so she keeps it a secret from him.
You wrote: “before all this.. she appreciated this guy a lot… Now suddenly she changed her entire opinion about him and told me how bad he was..My sister.. told my parents… Seeing that they weren’t convinced.. She poisoned their minds against me in general then against the guy”.
What motivates your sister to keep you away from relationships, dishonestly and energetically working hard to keep you from having a relationship with any man, willing to turn her/ your parents against you for that aim?
And why is it so important for you to please your sister, why do you give her power over your life?
anita
December 19, 2018 at 10:03 am #269993Ik09
ParticipantFirstly, thank you so much Anita… You are actually very kind to read and really understand everything. I feel reassured that I will be okay when I talk to you.
Okay, so yes… When my sister met my ex… She approved at first… They even exchanged texts and told him that she approved as well but when the break up happened, she totally went back on her words…much like this time.
Her actual motivation behind all this…I don’t know but from what she has been telling me she says she feels she needs to look out for me. We have had disputes over this as well but the thing is…my sister never discusses anything…it’s always she speaking her mind and then walking off.
Not just my sister…for a long time in my life…i needed approval of my entire family..my two siblings and my patents… And i was easily hurt too by their words…but there has been a change in me ever since i met this guy… He did not ask me to be against any of them… Instead he cares more than I do… But I finally don’t require her approval… I don’t. But he feels he wronged her as a frien by not telling her in advance that he wanted to pursue her sister…. Currently they don’t talk…my sister has blocked both of us on all social media… And there is no communication between me and my sister or him and her.
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December 19, 2018 at 10:22 am #270003Anonymous
GuestDear IpkR09:
You are welcome.
In your previous thread you wrote: “I always have had the fear of being left alone all my life… It originated long back due to some family members… leaving me behind”-
what family members left you behind, when and how?
In your previous thread you wrote: “My sister is getting married in July and we are not on talking terms for a month and a half”- whose decision was that and why was it made to not be on talking terms?
In your post of a few moments ago you wrote that your sister blocked you on all social media “And there is no communication between me and my sister”- whose decision is it and why was it made, to not be on talking terms .. yet again?
anita
December 19, 2018 at 10:32 am #270009Ik09
ParticipantI am am Indian girl…and although I belong to a well educated family but still…my late paternal grandfather was not very receptive to a second girl child in my family….he wanted my parents to give me up for adoption….there was a lot of stress so my mother requested my maternal grandmother to keep me… I stayed there till I was 5-6 years old…. My maternal uncle and aunt hadn’t been blessed by a child then so they decided to adopt me…but then for some reason they changed their my mind later… A year later… My parents were able to convince my paternal grandfather to bring me back home and he agreed…
All through my childhood, I worked hard just to prove that I am worthy. Now I realise how weak it made me from within…
My sister wasn’t very good at academics so she was always compared to me… She hated it and slowly it made her feel that I purposely try being better than her… The constant comparison is in my eyes the main reason for the stiffness between us….
My sister was supposed to be married but things went wrong…. She is single for now. Even then, she was the one to decide that we shouldnt talk since we are very different people and our opinions don’t match…. And now…she blocked me…said she does not consider me her sister anymore… I told her… I know I am not wrong and so… I will not block her or see her differently.
December 19, 2018 at 10:36 am #270011Ik09
ParticipantI was actually sent to stay with her by my parents because they felt that she needs some emotional support for now… And since my parents were not available to travel so they sent me with her. I was sceptical about going because our stays have never ended well but I was worried about her as well. Cancellation of a marriage can cause a huge emotional breakdown and so I encouraged the vacation… although I wanted only the two of us on the vacation…I thought maybe it will bring us closer… And it did… But also made me closer to him.
December 19, 2018 at 11:11 am #270019Anonymous
GuestDear IpkR09:
Your sister was born, later you were born (how much older is your sister?). Your father’s father didn’t like you being a girl so he wanted his son to give you up for adoption. Your mother didn’t want to do that, so she asked her parents to take care of you. They did. Eventually you were brought back to your parents home. Two daughters there, your sister and you. You tried to convince your parents (and maybe grandparents and everyone else) that you were worthy to be in their home.
You did better than your sister academically, and she was compared unfavorably to you, that made her feel competitive with you, jealous, maybe she was feeling that you were a sort of an outsider that came into the home to outdo her, to take away from her. So she is still angry, trying to prevent you from having a relationship with a man, because she doesn’t have one. Angry, she cuts contact with you every so often.
Did I understand correctly?
After she cuts contact with you, is it you who is chasing her, trying to get her to talk to you again?
anita
December 19, 2018 at 11:19 am #270023Ik09
ParticipantEverytime….yes…i apologise to her every time… because i feel someone has to(we are siblings after all) and i know she wouldn’t…
My sister is 5 years older than me..
What you are saying…is something I have felt too but I dared not say it aloud… It didn’t seem right on my part to think that way.
December 19, 2018 at 11:30 am #270027Anonymous
GuestDear IpkR09:
I want to come back to your thread when I am back to the computer. If you would like to add here more about what you “dared not say it aloud”, please do.
It is difficult though to write about what we are deeply conflicted about, isn’t it?
I hope to read from you when I am back. Take good care of yourself, have courage but be gentle with yourself. It is difficult to face matters that… mean so much, almost too much, if you know what I mean, do you?
I will be back in about sixteen hours from now. Take good care of yourself!
anita
December 19, 2018 at 11:32 am #270029Anonymous
Guest* didn’t reflect under Topics
December 19, 2018 at 11:35 am #270031Ik09
ParticipantYou too…. Take care Anita.. i will try not to think. Will wait for you.
December 19, 2018 at 11:43 am #270037Anonymous
GuestThank you, IpkR09. Will be back to you. Relax best you can.
anita
December 20, 2018 at 4:51 am #270099Anonymous
GuestDear IpkR09:
First I want to quote from your previous thread and some from your current because it is an opportunity for me and for you to learn (more) about yourself. I will comment following the quotes:
1. Feelings and Fate: “I never felt so strongly as I did when I met my ex four years ago… I felt this was meant to be because we were both in love with each other at the same time and it felt like fate”, current thread: “It took me 5 months to realize that the old relationship was pretty much dead to the point that my ex came back and asked to get back together, I declined”-
– a relationship can feel like fate, feel very strongly, but not be fate and be gone. Personally, I don’t believe in fate, but even for a person who does believe in fate, a feeling does not indicate fate.
2. Promises, Fear and Overthinking: “When I met him (ex bf), I was cautious not to fall very deep in love… He confronted me and told me that he will not leave. After that at… numerous occasions .. he told me that again and again, even when I was not afraid anymore… I was a smart girl, but when it comes to him I have been really dense!!!… I have decided not to date or love again till I am sure I love myself enough to not be afraid of being alone… why I am thinking so much!!!! I don’t want to care about him the same way he doesn’t care about me anymore but I don’t know how to gauge my thought process. Being busy does not help… my brain goes on in a loop”
– a man can tell you that he will not leave you, numerous times, and mean it, and yet end a relationship somehow.
There are no guarantees, but you can maximize the chances of a man not leaving you if you get to know him thoroughly over time, in person, in different contexts, and then figure that you want to be with him lifetime, for one, and then that he is increasingly and heavily invested in the relationship, is honest and trustworthy, and therefore highly unlikely to end the relationship.
The brain going on a loop, the overthinking is fueled by fear. Fear is a distress in the brain and the thinking is aimed at solving the distress, quieting it down. Problem is when fear is not based on a here-and-now situation, that is, it is based on long ago and is triggered now, it cannot be quieted, so we think, still afraid, we think more, still afraid, hence the loop, the overthinking.
And fear does indeed makes us dense, dense with overthinking and distress, so we are unable to attend attentively to the here-and-now and our intelligence literally falters.
3. The Qualities you Value: “This guy had the qualities I did not find in any other man earlier… He was polite and respectful and understanding and encouraging to me… He was patient with people, took time to understand matters and tried solving things”- these are the qualities you like in others and in yourself, qualities you want to refine and develop because you value them so much.
“There was a thing which bugged me during the relationship a lot, he never apologized first except for once and never accepted his mistakes… he did not take any responsibility in the breakup”- this is another quality that you value very highly, taking responsibility for one’s actions, accepting and acknowledging making mistakes and apologizing for wrong doings.
4. All-you-need-is-Love: “everything seems nonsensical and without a purpose. I aced through school and college, and then I got tired of everything. The only thing that kept me working for the future was the concept of love. I loved someone. In a manner that consumed me and when he left, it left me with nothing”- we all need love, all of us humans do. Love quiets fear.
5. False Responsibility: “I failed as a daughter when I could not keep jobs or study harder to give them a position in society that everyone would appreciate; I felt I failed as a sister when my brother could no longer look up to me seeing the epitome of success. I failed as a partner when he left without saying a word… I failed as a granddaughter… At this point of my life, I only feel like a failure”-
-You are not responsible for having been born a female, therefore you are not responsible for your paternal grandfather suggesting to his son to give you up for adoption. You are not responsible for the social/cultural norms of that led to your parents following the suggestion of the grandfather as if it was an order that had to be obeyed. You didn’t fail your grandparents or parents or siblings.
6. Weakness and Strength: I lost the quote, but you wrote that you don’t want to appear weak in front of anyone, that there are things you want to say to people but you don’t want to appear weak to them.
Will you elaborate on this, #6 (as well as your thoughts on #1-5)?
* I did not attend much to the current thread and our very recent communication, but will be glad to do so. It will take a bit of time, back and forth communication between the two of us. I am willing if you are.
anita
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