This is probably just me venting and I apologize for being an annoyance but I just need advice on how to handle my high levels of stress. I get anxious and stress for probably little reasons.
I want to be able to emotionally handle these things but at times it just gets too much and I go crazy. I’ve been meditating but I didn’t yesterday or today , so I’m not sure if it’d help or not but I’m sure it would.

Im 20 and unemployed, I went through a veterinary certificate class to find a job only to get rejected by many that I’ve applied for..
I cried my first interview. I now started to apply for normal jobs in shopping centers and grocery stores, and I called a few today but they’re not in the process of calling people back yet.
I do not know what to study if and when I go to college and I do not want to have major that I end up being disappointed in and hate and basically going to school just to make my parents happy …

I wanted to go to a beauty school two towns over but I’m just not able to because transportation is an issue and I do need a job as well, and because it’s far time management would be terrible if I were to take a bus.

Nothing else interests me at all except for beauty, and most likely meditation. I tried taking classes in music and ended up dropping the class because I just wasn’t loving it.
My mother keeps on trying to make me go to college and major in something she totally randomly suggested that I do not want to do. She always keeps pressing the same major on me that I told her many times would make me miserable.

I tell her I don’t want to waste my life being sad , I want to do something I love to do but I dont even know that yet or have the money to do anything.
I grow up mostly on the poor side because my mother made some bad financial decisions. I don’t want to say I had a rough life but things were not happy. My parents fight a lot as well and my dad treats me kind of like a private in the military since he was in the marines. He’s very loud as well so I don’t get much sleep or peace of mind to relax and not stress. All he does is yell all day about other people and he repeats his life on a loop and his issues and how much people are stupid and being broke, and its maximum volume at my ear all the time. I can’t get a moment of peace ever. Its not my issues but I’m really just exhausted listening to this and it stresses me out. I don’t want to be my parents ever.

my parents and family put a lot of pressure on me without helping me or anything. I don’t even have my license yet. I’ve always had to help myself. I’m pretty sure I had social anxiety and it’s pretty bad. I’ve had to fight these anxieties in public and I’ve been trying so hard to be more confident.

I just can’t take living with my parents anymore an being unhappy, i’m just sad all the time I can’t take their stresses over me and mine as well. I just hope I find a job soon.. It seems like the only way out is money , which sucks to depend on. I can depend on myself if I look at it in such a way, but I’m just so emotionally exhausted from this life I don’t know how much I can take it and I probably say this week after week since I was 16.

and just to add things on top.. I have this app on my phone that I try to earn money on just to get a couple of bucks to feed myself or even go do something to treat myself , but it recently rejected one of my “veggie” photo’s that I did submit but it wasn’t acceptable for tiny reasons. and now they’re going to take out 15$ resulting in an overdraft fee in my bank account because I don’t even have money in it.
I contacted both the website and the bank. I really hope something can work out. I’m having a total emotional breakdown panic attack.