There’s some Good news and some Bad news….
First, the good news….you’ll be easily able to empathize with your future patients !
The bad news is that you may not make it that far….

There’s a physical and mental aspect to all of this.
Your body is obviously stressed and probably permanently in the Fight or Flight mode, and, as you probably know, it shuts down a lot of the facilities that it decides are not essential. That makes decisions and actions that much harder to make. In my country, Australia, workplace stress is defined as..”adverse reaction experienced by workers when workplace demands and responsibilities are greater than the worker can comfortably manage, or are beyond the workers’ capabilities “. Are we getting close.

If this is allowed to continue, then you’re in for a world of pain. The obvious answer is to do something about it…like reducing workload etc. However, I think you’re saying that you know that, but your mind is rejecting it.

Next question…why is your mind rejecting the obvious solution?
As you say, you have placed your worth on being able to cope…with the alternative being failure and weakness.

Next question…how do I change this attitude?
See a Mental Health Counsellor…..only joking!! But actually, it’s not such a joke. These are the people who can help you change your attitude and beliefs…if you wish to.

You can certainly try it yourself, but it is difficult. The goal is to change your beliefs so that you KNOW that your worth is in YOURSELF, not in passing exams, getting a job, conquering Everest, becoming a Counsellor in record time.

Once you accept your worth, regardless of achievement, you’ll always make the right decision for your body.