Im 18 years old and I have little to no experience with guys. I dont know why but I am just not very boy crazy, nor was I ever boy crazy. My mom once even asked me if I was gay, so she would be able to explain it to my father. I was so offended by that implication, that I told myself I would not disclose any dealings with guys, because I felt my choice in guys would always be scrutinized. I do like guys, but I have only had one boyfriend, which was in high school; therefore, I would not really consider that a boyfriend. I am fully aware of the games that most guys play around my age, but I have no desire to date guys at this point in my life. I feel that my friends and family look at me weird because I have not had a boyfriend since high school, but it was never a priority for me. When I was 17, I even remember questioning myself, after my mom questioned me, because I started asking myself, ‘do I even like guys?’ and I would talk to guys but we would never be in a relationship, so I then knew I liked guys, but I had no desire to find or have a boyfriend. I recently realized something about myself: I am attracted to white guys, as supposed to black guys. I guess I’m still becoming comfortable with my sexuality and preference in men, and it confuses, shocks and scares me all at the same time. My family is very excepting to interracial couples, as I have many cousins who have dated outside of my race, but I guess I’m still becoming comfortable in my skin. I really just want to be able to date anybody I want regardless of their color, and just be happy; whether he is asian, white, hispanic, etc. I just want to be happy with my choice in guys,even though I have not really* been in a real relationship yet. I hope someone can relate to me 🙂 Thanks for reading