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June 12, 2013 at 2:03 pm #36809
Jeff
ParticipantWhen I first separated from my wife (about a year ago) I read a book called Forgive For Love by Fred Luskin. He talked about something called the Unenforceable Rule and it really struck home for me. Basically the Unenforceable Rule is that you can want somebody to do something, but you set yourself up because you get angry or upset or whatever when they don’t do what you want. In your case, you have created a “rule” (wanting him to change certain things in his life) that he doesn’t want to do for whatever reason. And now, you are upset because you can’t enforce a rule when he really doesn’t want to do it. So you beat yourself up and get upset because he isn’t doing something that you have no true control over.
At the end of the day, you may need to make a decision- is his refusal to make those changes enough to derail the relationship or is it something you can learn to live with? Chances are really strong that he won’t make any serious changes until he truly wants to do it for himself and not just to please you or make you happy.
Thinking about the Unenforceable Rules made me come to terms with the idea that I couldn’t make her change what she does or thinks. All I could change was whether I got frustrated with her lack of changing or not.
I hope that makes sense. Luskin describes it far better than I can. Good luck to you.
June 13, 2013 at 6:56 am #36847Rowena
ParticipantI am unsure whether this can help but I find the pages on here and reading others advice so helpful myself. I have split with my husband, we had been in a eleven year relationship and nearly 5 year marriage. Every minute of every day I think about going back and am desperately trying to work out whether this is an attachment to my old life and him or whether this is love. Its truly so difficult even when it was me making the decision to leave and even when he promises me he will change.
Maybe you are like me so frightened of something new so comfortable with the old shoe so to speak that it feels so torturous to try and push through and let go. It seems to feel so much easier to hope for change and go backwards. My husband was my best friend and the greatest love, but that is rose tinted glasses speaking he is also stubborn, deaf to my needs and wants and prevented our life from developing. We were not a team simply a him with a me that would do anything to keep and love him. The thing i find so hard is seeing my future without him in it. I wonder whether I can accept him as he is and put up with all the problems or whether in order for me to live fully I have to fly.
Re reading your message, I feel your words about the signs, about truly knowing deep down and most importantly to me, the feeling of being moved away from your own inner peace that going towards him, even though you say he is family and it feels unnatural to not allow him to change, feels wrong. I am driving myself mad from this same confusion. Losing your true love. Sometimes we can see it clearly from an outsiders perspective. sometimes not. You are lucky that you do seem to have an inner power and strength, that you are able to express what you feel, something I am only learning to do. Maybe it helps to know that you are not alone that these heart aching problems exist for many people. Perhaps it is the acceptance of the feelings you have deep down about the relationship that is more important than the acceptance of him not changing. I don’t know. The only thing I know is that its really hard to let go and to learn to fly solo but being honest and true is the only way forward. That is what I am working on.
Good luck in your search for strength, you just have to tap into it because its there inside you already.
June 13, 2013 at 9:06 am #36857Jerry
ParticipantV, Rowena, Jeff,
30 year marriage. Been out of the house almost 3 years, waiting on final Divorce decree.
My experience is so similar to what you have described.
Losing my best friend. I signed on the dotted line with the whole ‘death do us part.’
Rediscovering my spiritual practice and returning to my authentic self. Finding a supportive group of people. Avoiding the blame game.
But there has been a death. The marriage, the relationship, the promise of happily ever after has died. Feelings of failure, grief, fear, anger, hurt, betrayal are all in the mixing bowl. I have like you embraced these emotions and found new strength and clarity.
The old shoe. Familiar, but not necessarily comfortable. Confusing.
What I have discovered in these three years of intensive work is my dysfunction, my addiction to certain roles and behaviors. Her dysfunctions and addictive patterns were perfectly dovetailed to fit with mine.
In that way we were perfect for each other. There was and still is a lot of love there. Always will be. The old shoe was too tight. Familiar, but when I took it off, realized the relationship was over there was an emotion that surfaced beyond the suffering.
Relief.
As I grew outside of the relationship, I finally decided that I was no longer willing to go back. Decidere Latin to prune, cut away. Yes I love her. Yes I miss her. Those are authentic parts of me too. But at the core I knew. Deciding not to continue didn’t make the hurt go away, but my direction became clearer.
I have moved beyond the single bullet theory of relationships. I am willing to risk that vulnerability in another relationship. My prayer is that I have the wisdom to chose a partner that I can grow with. I also have discovered that just because I fall in love with someone doesn’t mean I have to marry them.
My hope is that by sharing some of my journey you will find continued strength in yours. These are common threads in our humanity and it is reassuring to know that I am not alone.
Namaste,
JerryJune 13, 2013 at 1:56 pm #36870V
ParticipantThank you all very much for empathizing and offering some guidance and support as well as sharing some of your own personal experience that I know is difficult to rehash sometimes. I’ve downloaded the book that was reccommended and I feel so much strength and love having a community where I can reach out like this and communicate with others who have been on a similar journey. Ultimately, I know the decision will need to be made at some point — to stay or to go. And whatever happens, I trust that I am taken care of as long as I continue to stay on the path where spiritual practice take precedence. I continue to pray for strength to make the decision in the most loving and positive way. Right now I take comfort in the way of thinking that I don’t have to “figure it out” just yet and eventaully I pray the best possible outcome will reveal itself. Thank you all again, I wish so much love and peace to every one of you and your continuing adventures in life and love. <3
June 13, 2013 at 6:33 pm #36873Jerry
ParticipantV,
Yes, what a wonderful place this is to share and be strengthened. You have found your path and you are so right about not having to ‘figure it out’. Sometimes the mind plays tricks and gets in the way.
Peace,
JerryJune 15, 2013 at 6:04 pm #36984eternal
ParticipantI’m thankful that I came across this thread. I’m going through the same experience with someone I love yet am not sure I can continue with.
V, These words of your post stood out greatly,
” I can see very clearly how all of these questions and confusion with him truly move me in the wrong direction from my practice and peace.”
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