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December 15, 2016 at 9:01 pm #122845KadidjaParticipant
I’ve always wanted to get a job since I was 17 because there will be times that I wanted to help out my family.Other reasons why I want a job is to travel is to see my pen pals, help pay for my tuition and have better social skills. I told my dad this and we got it a big argument. He told me that when I’m 18 and i graduate from high school I could do whatever I want. I graduated from high school 7 months ago and I asked my dad if I could work. He said I couldn’t because it wouldn’t fit his schedule. Few months later I asked him if I could work and he said because of my low gpa in high school ( I graduated with a 3.14) I would have to prove to him of getting good grades in my first quarter of college. I only have 1 C and my dad got upset and later on we had an argument. He was telling me stuff like he came to America when he had nothing. I told him that I don’t like it when he puts pressure on me when he says to do better (he would bring up his past to try to make me feel guilty for arguing with him) because I feel that i have to keep proving to him and i dont want to do that anymore. He would say stuff like my problems are nothing compared to his problems) because no matter how much I try to meet his expectations he would keep placing higher expectations on me.No matter what I do, it’s not good enough for him and he wants more from me. I could move out but I don’t have the money to move out. I told him I wanted to do work study at my school because I only have 4 classes for next quarter and I would have 1 or 2 classes à day. He won’t let me because he be lives I will struggles like he did when he was in college but he had a child at the time. When I stay at home he would sometimes complain about it telling me I do nothing.I had a hard time believing him when he said he has my back 100% and that I could come to him whenever I had a problem. Because when I used to tell him I’m stressed (mainly from dealing with friend drama) he would say stuff like honey you dont know what stress is. To make matters worse, he made it very clear that he believes Im rebelling because I am a teen and that I think I know everything. He even said that he’ll take me and my sister to Atlanta and show us some homeless people so I could be more grateful for what I have. He doesn’t believe in me going to school and working,because he believes I’ll end up wanting to drop out like he did when he was younger. I understand where he is coming from, but I feel a little bit trapped/ I asked to do work study at my school and they said that I can do a few hours a week ( I have 4 classes next quarter, so I will have 1 or 2 classes for 4 days a week) I always do what he wants me to do and I don’t like it. I dont want to suck it up. I have been doing this for years, and I feel more upset when I do this to myself. I want to try to keep searching for a job, but I run the risk of having another argument with my dad. But, I personally believe I would be more upset with myself I do not stand up for what I want. I even told him that I want to do things my way and that even led to a bgger misunderstanding. When I said I want to do things my way. I meant that I want to try to do what I like and learn from my mistakes and choices. He must have thought that I wanted to live by my rules, because he said I cant do what I want.
December 16, 2016 at 9:57 am #122890AnonymousGuestDear Kadidja:
You tried to explain yourself to your father many times, didn’t you? You told him how you feel and what you think but he didn’t consider your thoughts and feelings. Is it correct?
You tried many times over years. I would say that him understanding you is a lost cause, wouldn’t you say? If so, trying to please him will not work, just as it hasn’t worked so far. Trying to meet his expectations does not work. So, stop trying.
And so, it is time to stop fighting with him, and time to plan your independent living, away from him.
I understand you don’t have the money to move away right now. So it is time to plan on how to get the money so to move away.
anita
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