everyday i pray n hope. i was in a relationship with my best friend.He was my best frnd for 3 years. His life was not so smooth like me. I have financial problems, family problems you knew each other well. firstly i started to love him but he ignored because he have had two relations before which didn’t work. somehow in this February he said he loves me n wants to be in a relationship. I was afraid then as i know he has a tendency no to hold himself. He was not brought up in a normal household and his first love died( who was everything to him).He is a very good person and i wanted him to be together because he badly needed some1. we were happily in a relationship.He became more responsible and sincere with studies n started planning our future. He is the first person in my life to be in a relation. I was flying as i couldn’t believe he can take care of me that much. He eagerly wanted us to be together n be married. I also talked with his mom.
But gradually he was becoming pensive. he told me that he wants to like Bob Marley n other legends. But as our relationship needed more attention it was not possible. n when he learned about great life of people he started to make distance from me. Those days were bitter. He said that he doesn’t care for anybody, no criticism , no compliment he needed. said that he wants to concentrate on himself alone . There is everything silly n meaningless in life except soul. He said he doesn’t care for his mother too. But i know he does.
I was having bad time n couldn’t believe that all my dreams shattered. tinybuddha helped me a lot like always.I had no one to share because i really don’t want people around us question him. I only realized that he is little bit like that n needs time. he told me to take of myself n my family. He didn’t want to feel guilty n wanted me to go my way.
But i noticed that he shared status like he has got “her”. I didn’t log in Fb for some time as it was distracting me more. When asked he said that its his life n thing he wants to do. i want to trust him but at the same time thinking is there any other girl! He said that if there’s anyone he won’t hide. In the meantime he has aloft himself from everything n people around.Or like he said there is no connection like before he now just passes time. I really need help because i know someday he would he okay but i don’t want to hurt myself thinking bad about him. I have the trust in him that he is bound to answer my questions( as we were best friend) i need help. I know he cares for me. But it is difficult to deal with people who knew we were in a relationship as we share common friends n people.

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