Hi anita

I understand it will be hard but I won’t quit. I can’t afford to. My life in this state is too hard.

Girija

• This reply was modified 2 years, 11 months ago by samy.

Hi anita,

I will not quit. Not this time.

But I feel so tired and “sore”. I wish I could be happy while doing this work. I have said that I don’t know what will make me happy, and we’ve discussed earlier as well that healing myself would be the way the work I need to do to be able to experience joy. But, I’m miserable. I have to tear my focus away from the tornado in my chest and use it to get my work done and it is so hard. And there is constantly new stressors that get added. I wish I could figure out how to get my body into a happy state, soothe myself. I am not able to do that.

I tried setting an intention today first thing in the morning, that I will fight anxiety. It did help. I was able to dismiss a lot of fears emerging from meetings at work. But, I am simply swinging between neutral and miserable. I want to feel lighter and happy. I want some happiness. Happiness that doesn’t threaten to hurt. Just a moment of happiness.

Girija

Before, I respond to everything else – I am sorry you weren’t able to sleep well. I hope you are able to rest during the day. Is something on your mind bothering you?

And were you able to unblock that person or do you need my help unblocking them? Tell me which email provider – gmail, yahoo.com, etc and I can find and link ways to unblock. I will wait around for your reply.

I feel bad too when I think my actions hurt another person or caused them problems. But it might help to think how you would react when someone made a mistake that impacted you, if they were genuinely sorry and trying to fix it or fixed it and it did not cause you real harm. It might have hurt your feelings but you would understand that it was only a mistake. I am sure the other person will understand too. Please don’t feel bad.

Girija

Could you try the below steps. And let me know if your screen looks different than what the steps suggest.
Step 1

Sign in to your Hotmail account using your email address and password.

Step 2

Click the “Options” button from the menu at the top right of the screen and select “More options” from the dropdown menu.

Step 3

Look for the “Junk e-mail” section of the “Options” menu that opens. Click the “Safe and blocked senders” option. You can view email addresses marked as safe and email addresses that you have blocked here

Step 4

Click “Blocked senders” to view a list of the blocked email addresses.

Step 5

Select the email address you want to unblock from the list of blocked email addresses and then click “Remove from list.” The email address you removed is now unblocked and you can receive email messages from this address.

• This reply was modified 2 years, 11 months ago by samy.
• This reply was modified 2 years, 11 months ago by samy.