As an update
I’ve had a friend come over tonight, for a catchup. She asked about my well being and I spoke about this situation, she helped give some advice on how things are and what path to take. It’s been similar to the advice given on here. I have more of a clear mind than I did before.
Thank you to all who commented on here, it’s really helped to shed light on things, how I see the situation and also conflict within myself that I need to resolve. I just need to look into the tools I need to help with that process.