Interestingly enough, I was having a conversation similar to this recently. The conversation, in a nutshell,  surrounded around the fact that an awakening is a lonely, personal thing. A time where many changes in perspective, and priorities, happen. During this time, one can feel alone, depressed, etc in trying to figure out why you don’t feel the same way about things you once did. That is the beauty of awakening. Personally, I can sit quietly and be mindful of my surroundings and really enjoy it. I can view things that I, and many others, deemed as important as not so important anymore. I can watch people act in the way I used to and wish they understood what I now understand. (by the way, it is still hard to talk to people who don’t understand which I think is where the loneliness/depression part of the path comes into play). But through it all, I am much happier, calmer, empathetic, and grateful with each passing day. I live my life through example hoping others see the beauty of life and I hope someday they can participate. The more people that can awaken, the more we become connected rather than feeling disconnected. It took a while for me to be purely happy as I too had feelings of dullness and solitude. People accused me of having no emotions anymore. The reality was I was not putting effort into the things that didn’t require or deserve my attention anymore. My focus went to more important things like meditation, mindfulness, and connection to the universe. This is where true happiness, love and gratitude lie. After all, if things aren’t different, are you really awakening?

I know exactly how you feel. I can sit and become overwhelmed with emotion. I used to think I was having emotional breakdowns when I started crying for no reason; overcome with emotional connection to the universe. You are seeing things in a way few can. Others will call you names but forgive them as they know not the beauty you have come to realize. Lead through example and soon they will long for what you have awakened to. You are “engaging” in the world differently, that is for sure. You are engaging in a world where you can differentiate between what was important (and ask yourself was that stuff really important) and what is now important for your soul. We all enter this world with nothing but Love. Society engages us and we develop to where we think we should fit in with everyone else and believe what everyone else thinks. When we awaken, we realize that society has most of it wrong which is why we have wars, financial imbalance, poverty, etc. Awaken people start to look back at what Love is and what it means to be empathetic and exist in what we came for…….move our souls forward and live life in Love. This is difficult for others to identify with as they still see the things you used to see as important, as important. I would say you are on the path you should be, you just haven’t fully acknowledged you are there. That is society trying to make you believe otherwise. Stay on track and let the universe guide you. Everyone you meet and everything that happens is the universe pushing you toward your souls purpose. It is the people who fight it are the ones who really can’t move forward. Meditate and get in touch with the universe and listen to the messages, truly listen. You will find what you are feeling is what is needed to move forward, even if it is uncomfortable in the beginning.

Bob