Hello,
I understand how you must feel about this. You must know that the pain this causes is necessary for you to go through in order to move forward and grow. Don’t block the pain or reject it. Feel it, accept it, and let it pass. That is how you let go. You will be amazed at how quickly things turn around.

We all have break-up stories and feeling like your heart broken is can be a beautiful thing. Having the ability to love that much is a blessing in disguise. Be strong, when feelings arise, just breathe and accept them.

See the positive that will come from this situation and be grateful for the experience.

Thepathofaronin.blogspot.com is my personal blog and may be helpful.

Good luck my friend!

I’m sorry you’re going through this heartache. You seem like a loyal loving person and that is to be admired… Everyone gets their heart kicked around at some point in life.

That said I want to offer a few suggestions.
1) you need to learn to have firmer boundaries with people, especially lovers. Unfortunately people will often push them as far as you allow them to… In this case he strung you along to a certain extent which made the pain worse. You deserve better than to be someone’s backup plan.

2) you need to love yourself, you’re sanity, and the need for a healthy peaceful life more than this man. Is this really what you want out of your lover? Or is this slightly masochists behavior in the name of the ego?

3) if someone has issues you cannot be their caretaker… I dated an alcoholic and once and tried my best to care for them and change them. You cannot win. You will only suffer

To overcome this heartache I suggest the following
1) daily meditation. 40 min per day minimum

2) set a mini goal for yourself… Such as hot yoga everyday for 14 days. Winning at this mini challenge will boost your confidence tremendously.

3) break contact. No texts Facebook etc…

Best of luck

Namaste