Hello, thanks for reading my current struggle, I’m so sick of this situation.

to make it short, my best friend had his girlfriend for 2 years. Last few months the relationship was’nt going too well, which led to breakup. I have become  her best friend during those 2 years and we knew there was certain atraction between us, Yet we remained best friends.

After breakup, many not pleasant situations happened in her life, she dropped out of University and got in very bad arguments with her family (she was sleeping in a car for a while instead her house) and lost almost all her friends, which resulted in suicide attempt. She would be dead now if her brother didn’t stopped her. As her best friend of course I founded this out, so I started being with her more often and was her support.

We were spending time together (I was at the same time with her Ex boyfriend who is one of the most important people in my life) and she confessed to me that only time she is happy with her life is with me and actually loves me… that wouldn’t be such a big problem but I falled during this time in love with her as well.

And now to the trouble … her ex (my best friend since kindergarten) totally loved her and still loves her, he is psychically at total rock bottom. And doesn’t know anything between me and her (about suicide as well, she told only me and her bf which she has since childhood). So I love her, but I don’t want to hurt my friend, he is my bro since ever and just can’t do it to him, yet we love each other with his ex… and she just has a terrible life now.

I was talking with her best friend and she told me that she doesn’t know what to do … I am the one of the persons she has in her life and she loves me, actually she said ending our relationship would be last nail in her coffin. With Which I agree with, just because I know the situation.

So here I am, stabbing my best friend in his back while being unable to end my relationship with his ex, because I love her and because I would kill her. She almost doesn’t have a home, lost boyfriend, losed friends, dropped out of college, her family hates her and now the most important person (which she loves) would leave her as well… and I just can’t do this

I Just don’t want to lose my bf, but doesn’t want to stand on her funeral or whatever, not speaking about emotions I have towards her …

what should I do