This may be dumb to think about, but I definitely have a crush and I just don’t know how to feel.

So about a month ago, him and I talked at a party, we had SO much in common because we know so many of the same people and we got along well. On top of that, we also made out and we exchanged numbers and Instagram. He’s in my college English class, so we’d see each other every week. It was weird cause when I left that party I was swooped off my feet and I don’t know why!

So weeks go by and he doesn’t do anything to show he’s interested, so I assume that he doesn’t like me. But one day, he adds me on Snapchat. I didn’t overthink that  too much because I was trying not to over anylize. The next week I was sitting alone in the cafeteria, and this random guy comes up to me and asks if I know about his friend (the guy I like, we’ll call him Shoe). And he started talking to me about how Shoe is scared to talk to me because I never smile at him in the halls, and that Shoe wants to invite me to a show that he is hosting. I was freaking out cause he told his friends about me and I kind of had a feeling he did! His friend said “stay here 15 minutes, I’m gonna go get Shoe so you guys can talk.” So I waited and they showed up. My other friend who’s a girl sat with me too and we all began to talk. He was staring intensely in her eyes and he didn’t really look at me. But I saw his body movements and he kept on inching towards me, and eventually we began to talk and it was fun. He remembered so many details about me I told him at the party, and claimed it was his good memory since he’s an actor. My friend and I left the conversation and she said “wow he seems really into you.” I still didn’t read too much into it.

That weekend he sent me a Snapchat saying that he was at my work super late at night, we had a short conversation but he didn’t reply after one Snapchat because it was hard to reply to so I understood.

Id catch him glance at me occasionally in the halls. My friend told me that he mentioned me to  one of my coworkers and that he brought me up a lot and that he seemed interested. I thought that maybe I should just take my chance.

I accidentally MISSED my chance and I went home that night disappointed. But then an opportunity arises for me to text him. He posted an Instagram story saying “if you wanna buy tickets for my show just DM me.” So I did. We actually had a funny convo. He even kept it going and I was afraid he was gonna wanna keep it short.

The next day we met up, but he barely looked at me and I did the same too. He began to talk to my friends and asked them about the show as we awkwardly exchanged tickets and money.

But right after talking, he sent me a text asking if he can come to my photography class to take pictures. I said sure no problem! But then he didn’t end up coming because he was caught filming for his show. He texted me saying he was extremely sorry and that if I needed him he’d model for my project. We set up a day for Wednesday, and we actually had another great conversation that was funny.

Last night I went out, and he happened to be at the same bar. The first person I see when I walk in was his friend, and he came up to me and said “hey! How are you? By the way, Shoe is upstairs!” I was so happy! I found it random how he randomly brought Shoe up to me. But then, I saw him talking to other girls, I told myself  he was flirting with them. I obviously felt jealous cause you know, I think he isn’t interested. I saw him glance over to me while he was talking to the girl, but I still told myself not to think too much of it. I saw his friend again, and he said “Hey, there’s your boyfriend Shoe!” I was like “boyfriend?” And he said “yes your boy!” So I don’t know what that was about.

Eventually, we were at the bar in a group and he asked me a question about the modeling shoot. He took a lot of shots of tequila too. So he ended up being really drunk but he was nice.

My friend was trying to get us to to dance together, and so was his friend. We ended up dancing together and damn it was hot. We ended up having  conversation and he was asking me questions and we got along super well it was cute. His friend came up to us and said “hey you guys are doing so much talking!” He even headbuded me by accident and kissed my forehead. I STILL can’t read into that cause he was pretty drunk. My friend pulled me away from him and said “no you deserve better. He’s been talking to so many girls tonight, don’t buy into it.”

After a bit we ended up meeting up again and his friend mentioned the girl’s name that he was talking to before. It made me sad a bit. We started to dance again and ugh it was cute and fun. At some point I made him sit down cause he looked gone. We locked eyes for a moment and he really stared at my eyes hard. I don’t know if I misunderstood the situation, or that he was just drunk or that maybe he was actually  staring. I went to get him water but when I came back he got up and left to be with his friends. I wasn’t too offended because he was super drunk. At some point his friend said they were going because Shoe wasn’t feeling to good.

This girl told me he could have been trying to make me jealous with the other girl, but I doubt it. There’s just a lot  signs that he’s into me but then I don’t know. He mentioned me a lot to his friend, and he’s tried to smile at me in the hall but I was the cold one. At the bar he’d walk by me like I’m not there, but then I’d catch him look when I walk into a room. And when we spoke it was really just us.

I also got warnings from people saying that he’s really thirsty. I really took that to heart cause then all this cancels out and all he wants is to use me. But some of my other friends said to be cautious but not to judge right away, and maybe I have to experience him first before I can actually know. Shoe’s friend told me that she wants to be my “good friend” and get to know me. Sometimes I believe it, but last night left me SO confused. I’m scared I come off as like creepy or something. Or that maybe he knows I like him. I’m not too sure anymore.

Please help!