Hey Maria,
Listen, you are only 18 years old and you have a big future ahead of you. First love is hard to get over but you need to move on and do not allow him to manipulate you any longer with his tears and lies. You need to be loved, respected and care for. So go out with your girlfriends and enjoy what life has to offer, talk things with them and seek their best opinions and move on.
At 25, I was in the similar relationship where my boyfriend was cheated on me twice and yet I still stayed with him, not cause I loved him but he made me felt guilty by crying where he said he will change and yet never did. The moral of the story is, always love yourself and think with your head, not your heart or else you will be wasting years of your life.
The moral of the story is, always love yourself and think with your head, not your heart or else you will be wasting years of your life.
Be strong and I know you will get through this.
Love,