Hey AngelGirl
It looks like you are going through a healing period, a deep one, a good one.
Look up what is called the dark night of the soul
YOu cannot find a job because the universe/source wants you to heal, to look within yourself, to face the pain, to face the trauma, you do not have to go through this alone, but you are the only one who can go through it, because it is you, I myself go through this and have gone through this, this is just a deep one for you right now and you are totally capable of it. Otherwise it wouldn’t be happening to you!
Everything happens for you, not to you, you will heal, grow, shine, radiate divine feminine, that is a big aspect of why you are here on Earth right now, your soul chose to be here, you were not forced to be here.
Let me know what I can do to help you through emotional support