I am so frustrated and confused...... :(

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September 3, 2016 at 7:29 am #114101

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Hi Anita,

Do you feel lonely and afraid at times? I am feeling very lonely these days. I feel like I won’t have anyone in my life and that scares truly scares me. I had a bad day today and could not get it together to go to work. I am feeling better now and managed to block my ex on social media (which I thought was good step). I did some guided meditation and that helped alot. I feel like I would like to keep in touch with you more privately (email or even facebook) but not sure how to do that on here….lol. Sounds like you have come a long way over the years and you should be proud of that. I will persist! I am trying to take things one day at a time.

I was asking about where you live thinking you could attend an AA meeting with me cause that really scares me but I will eventually muster the courage to do it! Thanks again for taking the time to write to me. It helps alot to know I’m not alone.

September 3, 2016 at 7:34 am #114102

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Dear Sue:

How strange: your post a few moments ago is the same post of four days ago to which I already responded.

anita

September 3, 2016 at 7:49 am #114104

Sue
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I am brand new here, too, and have a LOT to learn so please only take my words with a grain of salt, but I very much related to your story. I had a man in my life who for the life of me I STILL can’t understand why I was so drawn to. Intellectually I knew he was bad for me but I couldn’t stay away. This went on (like yours) for 10 years and I finally found the strength to break away and stay away. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t think about him constantly and still cry over him often for a very long time. If I could go back a few years and give myself some advice it would be to just “Accept” that I am always going to feel love for the man and that I may always miss him, but that that’s OK, as long as I didn’t act on those feelings. Those feelings may never go away but they do fade and life will go on.

Again, I’m brand new here, loving this forum, and hoping you find some comfort in knowing I can totally understand your situation.
Sue

September 4, 2016 at 1:50 pm #114228

Crystal A Goodrich
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Dear Sue,
I have had some wonderful friends who have helped me through a few breakups. Support from your friends can be very helpful. Talking to them instead of contacting him, writing in a journal or writing “no send letters” (the ones you write to him and painfully honest but you never send) can be fantastically therapeutic. I only know of AA through friends and I know it can be the key to long term sobriety – keep that in mind and connect with positive, supportive people who keep you steady.

I have learned a few things about relationships I would like to share. Feeling “SAFE” can really mean you find a relationship “FAMILIAR”. What you found with this man sounds like a close replication of what you had in your family of origin. That was abusive and damaging so this relationship may be the same. We often join relationships that are familiar and unfortunately they are not happy ones.

When I was mourning the end of my very first love relationship a wise woman said to me “there is a big difference between love and attachment.” I have never forgotten her words. Is is love or attachment to a familiar pattern of living?

Make sure you care for yourself first. If you are healthy, making positive connections with friends and sober you will find life has a lot to offer you. Believe me I have been single for a long time so I am not saying with confidence “you will find your true love”, that sounds false when you are going through such pain, but I do know no relationship is much better than a relationship that makes you feeling “less than” the smart, wonderful, caring, beautiful soul you are.

Take care of yourself!
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