hi Anita

I would not give any credit to all kind things they did to me. And mostly would rant towards them with things that might not happen too.. I had always degrading words on the tip of my tongue, but I managed myself not to let it out because I’ve lost someone because calling him assh*le

Then it’s all just scenarios I created on my head. I would accuse them cheating and tell them that everything they did was fake and pretentious. But then when they explained back to me, i cried so hard..  My ex would tell me that I want only hear and accept the truth that I think about in my head and will not listen to him. He told me once in an argument that I needed to stop victimised myself and see him as a person too..