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  • #145883
    Anonymous
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    Dear jlo5:

    My first thought as I read your first paragraph is how succinct it is, how briefly and clearly expressed, how concise. It was exceptionally succinct. The whole post is evidence of clear, calm thinking on your part. This leads me to conclude that, no doubt, you made the correct decision for yourself 12 weeks ago.

    Your last paragraph is evident that you made the correct decision for your children as well. They told you he is calmer when they are with him, and you wrote that you are relaxed in your own home, which means they witness you calmer as well. A Win for them!

    And it is the right decision for him as well- he is calmer when with the children. He is not always calm but there is progress.

    And so, that feeling of guilt that you feel is not evidence of reality. It only feels this way. In reality, you made the correct choice for all involved. Sometimes our feelings are not trustworthy (it is called “emotional reasoning”- a category of distorted thinking, taught in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, where we think something is true because it FEELS this way).

    “How to heal”- title of your thread- keep doing what works, and this is working.

    Notice, you wrote: “I also know he is hurt and angry and he doesn’t know how to behave,” I suggest that when he was “bombing me to abusing me over messages” he knew what he was doing: he was angry and tried to hurt you. That is what people often do when angry. This is why he apologized later on, because he knew what he did was wrong, only at the time he did it, he felt compelled to do it.

    I understand that you “need him to understand what he did, I need him to see my side of things”- but notice: it is a man who feels too uncomfortable to go to a second psychotherapy session that you want to understand what he did. He is too uncomfortable.

    anita

    #145947
    jlo5
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    Thanks Anita, you helped me a lot when I posted before.

    I saw him this morning and it felt more relaxed generally (he was dropping off the boys stuff). He knows he has pushed me to the point of no return. All I hope is way in the future we can have a mature co-parenting relationship. Next thing I need to broach is selling the family home. I cannot continue to fund both houses (as he isn’t working I am sending money to pay bills etc). I feel perhaps it is best to give him the opportunity to sort himself out (he told me he is giving up alcohol totally) and when he is in a better place talk about practicalities.

    The sadness i feel is overwhelming at times and I know I need to grieve for the past relationship and what it could have been but also start looking forward to the future. I have some ideas about what i need to do regarding other areas in my life, and am looking forward to reestablishing relationships with family and friends (I am so incredibly lucky to have amazing support in real life) and being the best mother I can be.

    Thanks again.

     

    #145971
    Anonymous
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    Dear jlo5:

    You are welcome. Again, good thinking on your part. Regarding postponing the practicalities until he sorts himself out, giving up alcohol so that he can find employment, I understand, and pay his own bills- maybe put a time limit on it, a couple of months. Place yourself and your children as priority, financially and otherwise.

    Regarding the sometimes overwhelming sadness you feel regarding “what it could have been”- it is sadness over fantasy, isn’t it: sadness over what was not. Replace all hope for a … better-past, with hopes for a better future.

    anita

    #146137
    John
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    jlo5.  You did the right thing.  His recent and previous bad behaviour has been about control and anger.  When he finally realised that the abusive approach doesn’t  work anymore he changed his behaviour because you didn’t respond as he was hoping and in the way you have previously.  Rewarding bad behaviour with the desired response only serves to reinforce it.  Be aware that this new approach could just be a variation on how to regain control as you and he will only be free from it when he finally moves on from where he has been for a little longtime.  Good luck and best wishes.

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