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January 11, 2020 at 10:46 am #332709
Lloyd
ParticipantAnita,
You capture well what I indeed experience. The detail about reliving more than just one’s dry words is true, but what struck me is your very accurate description of how “we feel badly, we then feel good and think: oh, I got it! From now on I will be feeling this good, but no, next we feel badly again.. and good and badly again” Very true, and funnily enough I had a conversation just the other night whether my parents suggested things never truly get better (not what I’m suggesting you’re saying). Your explanation of how connections in the brain are impossible to rewire with just logic also makes a lot of sense to me.
I’m also truly sorry to hear that so much of your life has been characterised by misery. I can only send you my best wishes for peace and hope that you have someone in your life as kind and non-judgemental as yourself.
It’s about the process, not the destination. I am aware of this. I am trying to accept that I perhaps won’t ever feel okay about myself the majority of the time.
I don’t want to seem stubborn, but… now that we’ve talked a bit about all that Anita, I wonder whether you still think the way I feel about my parents’ mortality is something that can only be solved by working on past traumas? If so, I think I am probably missing something and I’m sorry 🙁
January 11, 2020 at 11:13 am #332715Anonymous
GuestDear Lloyd:
Thank you for your kind words and good wishes for me.
“I am trying to accept that I perhaps won’t ever feel okay about myself the majority of the time”- from my experience I do feel better about myself the majority of the time, way better. It just took a whole lot of time and a whole lot of work staring in 2011.
I don’t feel euphoric like I thought I would (I expected a heavenly destination to the healing process, but now I know that .. well, there is no heaven, really). Often I am content, although some anxiety is still my experience.
“I wonder whether you still think the way I feel about my parents’ mortality is something that can only be solved by working on past traumas?”-
– the extent of how much you worry about your parents’ mortality will significantly lessen if you work on past trauma and if you learn and practice emotional regulation skills as well as interpersonal skills (a good therapist should teach these to the client).
anita
January 11, 2020 at 2:29 pm #332745Lloyd
ParticipantThank you Anita. I’m really glad to hear that you are content most of the time, not only of course for your sake but also since it gives me more hope for the future. A healthy dose of optimism is a powerful thing, isn’t it?
I’ve decided for sure I am going to start therapy when I move house in March. I spend so much time thinking about saving the world, but I realise I cannot help a single soul without putting my own needs first, and if that means such time-consuming resorts as therapy then that is that and I needn’t complain. I think it’s hard, perhaps especially as a man, to accept that you are a human being with emotions and that it’s really okay to need help and to ask for help. But I’m ready now.
Thanks and best wishes— you are really a kind soul 🙂
January 11, 2020 at 2:45 pm #332749Anonymous
GuestDear Lloyd:
“A healthy dose of optimism is a powerful thing, isn’t it?”- yes it is. I like the way you write.
And you are very welcome. I just hope your therapist is good enough, hard working and generous with his time, his efforts and his empathy. It takes a dedicated, hard working, honest client and therapist to make therapy work. Do post again anytime you’d like to post. I will be glad to read from you and reply every single time.
anita
January 12, 2020 at 10:03 am #332883Lloyd
ParticipantI’ll try to get a good one!
Your existence is very appreciated. See you around 🙂
January 12, 2020 at 1:32 pm #332923Anonymous
GuestYour existence is appreciated as well. See you around!
anita
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