Hello everyone!

There are always some “inevitables” of life that everyone has to experience. I am TERRIFIED of eventually losing my loved ones (parents and siblings and at time, friends) and of course, pets too. This is a road everyone has to travel down. I know that and I am making lots effort to spend time with family and enjoy the present. But the fear of the future is still there. I recently lost my grandmother, she has lived a very full life and we all know she will pass one day. But since she has been present all my life so her passing away was such an abrupt change in my mental equilibrium that I wasn’t able to process reality. It’s been months and I still can’t believe such a big change has happen literally over a day (like she was still in bed yesterday and today she’s gone). My father recently had an hospitalization, we thought it was a stroke but it turned out to be something minor. Fine. But what if it’s really a stroke in the near future? What if he doesn’t survive it? What if I have to be the one to tell the medical professionals to let him pass on in peace when it’s futile to save him? What if the same things happen to my mom or siblings?

So much can happen in just one day and our whole lives can turn upside down due to this sudden change. I have so much fear and anxiety over the inevitable, all my “what ifs” I know this is out of my control and I’m throwing away my inner peace and happiness by worrying about these things…. but how do I deal with this? That these things will eventually happen and that I will lose my most beloved ones who knows when? Can be tomorrow or months or years from now?

Please share your suggustions and advice please. thank you!