Dear jlo5:
Welcome back.
Your ex, the father of your boys has a new relationship and as a result he hasĀ been nicer to you in the last few weeks. In aĀ previous thread you wroteĀ about him: “I’m realizing that my every waking moment around him (andĀ even when I was away from him) hasĀ been focusedĀ on keepingĀ him happy”. I think it upset you to see that another woman made him happy (so far, somewhat). Because you tried for so long, focused on this aim so intensely. What do you think?
In this thread you wrote: “For years I tried to make my relationship work with my ex and nothing wasĀ good enough”- I think this is what you are grieving, why you cried the otherĀ night.
“The fear of neverĀ beingĀ enough”- do you think it came up recently because (asĀ understandĀ it) this friends-with-benefits relationship has been becoming more serious, and the never-being-enough fear has been activatedĀ in the context of a more serious relationship?
anita
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