Hello Amal,
I’m sorry to hear about all the troubles in your life. I hope you have been able to turn things around and that you are in a better place now.
I guess Amal you will never know unless you contact her. I presume that you must have someway to get in touch, Facebook or whatever? So what is stopping you from saying ‘Hello’.
I think it is important to remember two things. Firstly that you are all very very young and at your age people grow and change very rapidly.
I also think it is important not to romanticise the past.. Many times I have seen people form an idealised vision of someone they are out of contact with, because in fantasy they can become everything that person wants or needs.
So if you do contact her try to keep your expectations realistic.
I’m not sure there is any thing you can do or say that will help – other then being your authentic self. Be honest and open with her.
I wish you all the best Amal.