Hello everybody! Namaste 🙂

So, I’ve been with my boyfriend for three months. I have to say, we together pretty quickly because we both just felt that this is something good. I have been very open to him about my depression and anxiety problems that I’ve had in the past and that I am still going to therapy every week, and that I am taking medication.
In the past few weeks, too much has happened for my mind and soul to cope and I can feel that I am in a very exhausted state of mind. Which is way my doctor has prescribed me a few days off. My boyfriend and I have already been through a few things that have made our relationship stronger. We had a “honeymoon” phase but mabye for two weeks. He never lied to me, but also didn’t tell me everything about his (pretty recent) ex, which caused a lot of tension.
Also he hung out with girls who he had a sort of “friends with benefits” situation with last year an entire day and didn’t tell me. He just told me in conversation and was shocked that I was a little pissed about that. As you can tell, yes, I am a little insecure. And also, because the stress I’ve been having in my job, I am much more irritable than normally. At least lately, I had been doing good. But it has been going down hill for a month or so now.
And in one way, I know and he knows, that some of the things , or more the way he handled them, were his responsability. But it’s also the way I reacted to things – I just cry so quickly it’s ridiculous – that made him feel a little overwhelmed.
It’s hard to admit, but I’m scared that my state right now is too much for a young relationship to handle. What’s good is that he is going to visit his family for 9 days soon, so he will have time to re-energize as well. And it’s not like I cry to him all days with texts and calls. It’s just when something tiny, tiny irritable happens, I snap. I just cannot take any stress right now.
So my question is: how do tell my man that I need his support and understanding without driving him away or asking too much out of him?
I don’t want him to think that THIS is me, cause right now I don’t feel like me, I feel like a fragment of myself. And I don’t want to scare him away – and of course that thought gives me very, very bad anxiety.
But he says he loves me and that he understands, and I have been there for him as well cause he isn’t doing so well in his work and wants to leave the office…So when he was grumpy I just accepted it.
What do you guys think? Much love, Helen