Hello wrtetheway,
I am sorry for the loss of your mum and how it impacted your life.

I am unclear on what you are wanting.

It sounds like it comes down to that you find living with your dad as stressful and intolerable. You are 23 and still taking care of your 21 yr old sister and 15 year old brother?

It helps to be clear on what you want for yourself and not focus on what you don’t want. When you are able to be in that peaceful place, what is your inner wisdom saying? What does love say?

Metta,
Mark