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July 27, 2016 at 9:18 am #110679
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GuestDear Aislynn:
I asked details on your other thread but got all the details I need right here. These are my thoughts: Ava doesn’t know you, at all. So her initiative to introduce Richard and you as dating potentials is NOT based on any valid information.
The fact that you can clean and cook, for crying out loud, is not valid information, unless, like you pointed out, Ava was to introduce you to Richard as a potential employee, a cook and a maid.
This is nothing but wishful thinking on Ava’s part, wishing her brother would get married and have children. You asked about her motivation, well- there are possible motivations, here are a few:
1. Maybe Richard is interested in a woman that Ava very much dislikes and she is afraid he will marry her and that she, Ava, will have a woman she dislikes as a sister-in-law, so she is in a rush to get him paired with someone else, anyone else.
2. Maybe Richard has exhibited, in Ava’s mind, a terrible taste in women he dated, and so Ava is desperate to get him paired with anyone who seems- on the very surface- decent, in comparison to his past choices.
3. Maybe, Ava is bored and so she is getting involved in her brother’s dating life, to have something to talk about with Michelle and with your mother- while he dates you, keep a conversation going.
Which brings me to the topic of your anxiety: the fact that the prospect is not only whether to date a particular guy, but whether to be the topic of conversations between Michelle, Ava, your mother, Richard and whomever else may be joining to talk- this is an extra burden on you, I believe. Now you don’t only fear what Richard will be thinking of you, you have Ava, Michelle and your mother’s conversations and cross-sections evaluations to think about.
So I would say- reject the initiative and when you do date someone, date someone who has no contact and no relations to people you or your mother knows.
anita
July 27, 2016 at 9:17 pm #110731Aislynn
ParticipantDear Anita,
Wow, what great insight you have given me. I thought that I was overreacting in my thoughts in regards to not wanting to date him. I felt that I was just looking for excuses to deny him.
I certainly don’t want to be his cook or maid, which I certainly got the impression of. I am not traditional in the sense that a man should expect that of me if we ever got together which is why I felt so disturbed and bothered by it.
From what I know, he hasn’t been dating anyone in at least the past year (Michelle told me this a long time ago). From what I also know, Ava seems to be very close to her brother Richard, as well as to her other brother. After what you told me, I figured that maybe she wants us to date because she figures I might be easy to manipulate.
I actually had lunch with my mom and Ava twice last month, and wow was it awkward. We spoke a little, and that’s stretching things because it was minimal random things, and this was after her initial prompt.
Honestly, her interest seems to have picked up after the first time we had lunch during which one of their male workers are with us as well. He made a comment to her around the lines of, “hey, Aislynn’s very pretty don’t you think, it’s such a shame that I don’t come from money and that I am married.” Of course said coworker said it to Ava in private, after which she told my mother. By no means would I encourage his behavior. However, I’m thinking that it might have sparked her interest a little more.
Now that I think about it, there was actually a third time in which I saw Richard. However, during this one occasion, his sister Margaret came up to greet us when she got there, and then Richard also came to shake my hand. So in my opinion, if I were to spark his interest it would have been in that initial greeting, don’t you think?
As it is now, I don’t know how to turn down the request, because it’s basically only been a conversation between Richard, Ava, and my mom. I haven’t even been asked for input. My mother actually thought I should give it a try, she said that despite how different we might be that we might have fun since he has a few good things going for him. So again, now he’s being the one objectified based on his looks and what Ava has told my mom about him. Ugh.
I don’t even want to bring it up that I’m not interested because I am worried that it’ll only make Ava more resolved to get us to meet.
July 28, 2016 at 7:27 am #110757Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
I like you looking for Ava’s motivation- very likely possibility, what you suggested. Maybe she did get the impression that you are shy, or awkward, following that lunch, and thought you would be easy to manipulate. Not a good thing… if so, she is already manipulating Richard and other people in her life and simply continues in the same line of behavior.
In your last line you wrote that you don’t want to bring it up that you are not interested because you are worried it will make Aa more resolved- are you afraid of Ava’s resolve? Is she already a powerful person in your life? If she is not paying your bills, why does she get any power at all, in your life?
anita
July 28, 2016 at 12:10 pm #110790Aislynn
ParticipantDear Anita,
I know that Ava’s eldest brother is in the process of divorce after his wife cheated on him and took advantage of his financial situation. This makes me think that perhaps Ava doesn’t want Richard to end up in the same situation. Thinking about all of Ava’s possible intentions makes me feel guilty because perhaps she only has good intentions?
She’s not a powerful person in my life, it’s just that I HATE confrontation. I’ve never been good at standing my ground when it comes to my elders. I was taught to respect my elders and do as I was told. Therefore, I don’t have the slightest clue as to how to turn her down when I haven’t even spoken to her about the matter if that makes sense.
July 28, 2016 at 1:01 pm #110794Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
To do as you are told, my goodness, that is a recipe for disaster. It is a good instruction only if you are a child and your elder is a decent, capable and trustworthy person. And as the adult that you are, better practice being assertive and take on this opportunity.
Ava may have good intentions for herself. Maybe for her brother. As for you, I don’t know, not a good idea to risk your well being based on anyone’s good intentions. The saying goes: “The road to hell is filled with good intentions. And I say, good has nothing to do with it. (sounds good).
anita
July 28, 2016 at 1:43 pm #110799Aislynn
ParticipantDear Anita,
You are right. I do need to practice being assertive. It is not so much a problem with strangers, but rather when it’s someone related to me or whom my parents know. I don’t know, I guess I don’t want to seem rude or like a bad person. Realistically, I know that turning down requests won’t make me look like a bad person, but I still feel bad for doing it. I’ve gotten a lot better at being assertive when it comes to my judge-mental grandmother who I now refuse to visit. Stepping away from her was a big step for me, but I know that I am not as assertive as I should be.
I had never heard that quote before, but it is definitely something I will keep in mind because I can see how true it is.
That being said, I still don’t know how I will deal with this situation. I just hope it never comes up again, doubtful though. I feel that the only way in which perhaps I can get Richard and Ava to back down is if I speak with Richard directly. Since I don’t want to see him or go on a date with him I was thinking about telling my mom to tell Ava to tell Richard to send me a message through social media/add me as a friend so that I can speak to him and tell him that I am not interested. I feel that otherwise, without direct contact with me, he won’t understand. Does that sound like a good idea?
If it was a good idea though, what would I even say to him? I don’t want to cut him off right out of nowhere, rather I want to give him an informed decision about my choice not to want his friendship/courting. I know that I do not owe it to him, but I think that by explaining my motives he will better understand and accept my decision.
July 28, 2016 at 2:09 pm #110802Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
The person who suggested to you personally to date Richard, the person who said or wrote to you about it- is the person to whom you say that you are not interested. Neither Richard nor Ava told you, Aislynn, that he/ she wants you to date Richard. So don’t talk to either one. It was your mother, am I remembering correctly, who suggested it to you? So tell her: not interested.
“Mom, you suggested I date Richard, Ava’s brother. Well, I am not interested.”
If she argues with you, ignores what you said, keeps talking about it as if you didn’t say that you are not interested, say anything of the like of: “my decision is final. I am not interested. Please don’t mention it again. Please respect my position, it is not negotiable.”
I know it is difficult and makes you anxious, so say it to your mother ASAP and get it over with, then had a cup of hot tea or a cold shower (depending on the temperature).
anita
July 29, 2016 at 9:36 am #110866Aislynn
ParticipantDear Anita,
Yes, it was my mother who suggested it. I actually told her I didn’t think I’d like him and that I didn’t really feel like going out with him. That was when she told me that I might end up liking him since he had a few good things going for him.
I don’t understand the pressure for us to date. Therefore, yes I will speak to my mother about it as soon as she mentions anything about him. I don’t feel comfortable being the one to bring it up to her, so I will wait for when she mentions it again.
Now that I’ve spoken with you about the matter I feel SO much better. I don’t feel as stressed or anxious about the situation. I suppose I just needed someone to talk to. Thank you for listening Anita.
July 29, 2016 at 10:06 am #110887Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
You are welcome and I am glad you are back. I was wondering about you.
No wonder you feel a greater difficulty asserting yourself with your mother than with strangers (you mentioned it in an earlier post here)- the risk of being disapproved by a person you need is greater than to be disapproved by a stranger, a people of no consequence to you.
This is why this is a good opportunity for you to assert yourself with a person of consequence to you, a person whose approval is so important to you: your mother.
When you told her that you didn’t think you liked Richard and that you didn’t “feel like” going out with him, that was not assertive enough. The wording you chose suggested that you are open to negotiate. So your mother suggested you might get to like him. Assertive enough would be: “I will not date him.” No opening to negotiation. Hope you state your position clearly next time, anytime.
And glad you are feeling better.
anita
July 29, 2016 at 10:23 am #110890Aislynn
ParticipantDear Anita,
Thank you for your concern. I really appreciate it.
I completely agree with you about the assertiveness. I don’t have many friends, and my family is my support system in so many ways. Therefore, I feel like I don’t want to disappoint her or my family. What you say is true which is why I now see why I would have preferred to turn Richard down myself instead of telling my mother that I was not interested.
You are right, looking at it, I did seem to be open to negotiation. I wasn’t, but I made it seem like I was. I suppose I felt that telling my mom that I did not feel like it would be enough to get her to understand. Clearly, it wasn’t. So I will definitely do my best to be more assertive the next time this topic comes up.
July 29, 2016 at 10:49 am #110893Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
You are welcome. This is an opportunity to exercise assertiveness and with your mother! I sure hope (and can’t imagine otherwise, for any decent mother, that is) that she loves you enough to … keep loving you when you assert yourself. You can imagine, if you have a child, that you will keep loving your child when she asserts herself. You would love her for it, you would want your own daughter to assert herself and successfully. So you would encourage her, by showing her approval, not disapproval, when she asserts herself.
It really is your personal business whether you date anyone or not. You should never date anyone to please him/ someone else. And so asserting yourself in this area, which is purely your own business, is most important. Even if it brought about a disapproval from your mother, it would still be the right and healthy thing for you to do. Hope to read an update from you here, in the future, about this. (and/ or thoughts otherwise).
anita
August 1, 2016 at 9:02 am #111180Aislynn
ParticipantDear Anita,
Yes, that makes a lot of sense. You would want your child to be assertive and confident.
I have a little update about the whole situation. I haven’t spoken to my mother about the issue right now, but yesterday I woke up with the strongest anxiety I’ve had in a very long time. I actually woke up from my sleep because of how anxious I felt. I tried to go back to sleep but it didn’t help and trying different aspects of mindfulness didn’t work either.
Unfortunately, this anxiety issue has everything to do with Richard. In my dream I was picking up my brother and Michelle’s son from school and I had gone to this weird street fair. I was in the parking lot and Michelle came to pick up her son from me because she had gotten out of work early, she left, and then Ava came. As soon as Ava appeared in my dream I sensed what was coming. So I start walking out of the parking lot and into the street fair and everywhere I go, Ava follows. I start feeling anxious and I want to get away. Ava then phones someone, and I know that it is Richard, and she then tells me that he is coming. For some reason, I then sit down at a table and wait. I actually don’t remember anything else from my dream, but I woke up with such an intense feeling of anxiety that I cannot believe a dream prompted this.
This anxiety was overwhelming in a completely different way than I’ve experienced during other times. I felt anxious for about two hours and it did not dissipate regardless of what I tried. I tried various techniques to take myself away from the anxiety, but nothing worked. The only technique that somewhat helped was picturing myself on a mountain and paying attention to all of the details, but even then my anxiety and dread followed.
August 1, 2016 at 9:12 am #111182Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
Will be away from the computer for a couple of hours and will read and reply when I am back. So sorry your anxiety spiked (read first sentence or so)- be back shortly.
anita
August 1, 2016 at 6:46 pm #111256Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
I wasn’t able to make wifi work for me as I planned when I was out, so wasn’t able to connect.
I am sorry to read how much you suffered. Do you think it will help you if you tell your mother you are not interested, in no uncertain terms, as I suggested before?
Your dream, it makes me think it is connected to your being bullied experience in school. It is as if Ava is bullying you into getting together with Richard. I am thinking you are re-experiencing the bullying, feeling so weak and powerless against Ava’s assertion that you see her brother.
There is no way around it: for you to be less afraid, you have to assert yourself. The part of you that is afraid, the inner child, needs to trust another part of you to be strong enough to take care of her (of the child inside you).
Of course, how do you assert yourself when you are so scared? It takes an ounce of courage, maybe a whole pound of it, to jump start you to do the assertion. It is the willingness to be very uncomfortable for the purpose of getting healthier. It is like going to the dentist knowing it will hurt but your teeth will get healthy. If you don’t go to the dentist (if you don’t assert yourself), the pain (your anxiety) will continue and continue and life will get worse.
So, please, Aislynn, assert yourself. Tell your mother. The part of you that is so afraid needs to know you can exert reasonable power over the situation.
As long as you exert no power, you are dependent on others’ mercy. When you exert power over your life, you will be less scared.
anita
April 26, 2022 at 2:26 pm #398856Anonymous
GuestDear Aislynn:
We communicated at great length from December 28, 2015, to August 1, 2016. It’s been five years and over 8 months since you lasted posted. You should be in your later 20s at this time; I am so very curious to know what is happening in your life.
As I read through your threads, I came across what you shared in a previous thread: “My father… his departure was indeed unexpected… Yes, I did take responsibility for him leaving, as a child I thought perhaps I had misbehaved. That I had disappointed him or angered him in some way…. Yes, I did identify with my mother’s struggles and hurt. I saw her as the victim because I saw how my father left us with nothing. He took all our valuables in terms of money and jewelry, and in a sense destroyed our family. I also saw my younger sister as a victim as well… I felt that I needed to protect and take care of my mother and sister. They had already gone through enough, and I being the eldest child felt that it was my job to step up and do all I could. My mother had to take up more hours at work in order to be able to pay the bills after we moved in with my grandmother. I saw how hard she had to work…
“I felt that my mother was hurt after my father left, I saw her as vulnerable and felt that it was my job to make her feel safe and happy… I saw her struggling, and I saw how hard she worked, and it was all to be able to provide for me and my sister. It hurt me that she had to make so many sacrifices. It didn’t help that I knew my uncles were all belittling her after my father left. They took it upon themselves to always tell her and remind her how they had never liked him, how they knew they’d never last. My mother’s family has always, always mistreated her. They’ve belittled her, pushed her around, hit her, etc.). I saw how those comments hurt her; thus, I felt an even bigger need to be strong for her. To protect her. My way of protecting her was by always pretending everything was fine. Even when I was being bullied in school. I didn’t want to cause her anymore pain… I just didn’t want her to see me as weak, because I felt that I needed her to see me as strong. I wanted to be strong for her and my sister” –
– I boldfaced the part that Aislynn the child/ teenager wouldn’t have known unless she heard her mother talk about it (talking to Aislynn directly or to someone else, in Aislynn’s presence). Her mother chose to let Aislynn know about her family “always, always mistreated her… belittled her“, etc., always, ever since she was a child.
Aislyn didn’t tell her mother that she was bullied in school, because she didn’t want “to cause her anymore pain… I never let her know about the bullying… I didn’t want to break her heart or hurt her. It was my burden to carry, not hers. I didn’t want her to see me as a broken“; but her mother told Aislynn about the mistreatments she, the mother, suffered since she was a child (“always, always“), not caring about breaking Aislynn’s heart, not thinking that her own childhood pain is her own burden to carry, not Aislynn’s.
Aislynn felt a big need to appear strong for her mother and to protect her mother from knowing that she was bullied in school; her mother didn’t feel the need to appear strong for her daughter and to protect her daughter from knowing that she was mistreated by her brothers growing and onward. (“I felt an even bigger need to be strong for her, to protect her“).
Aislynn, being older than her sister and brother, felt that it was her job to step up and appear strong for the sake of her mother and siblings; her mother, being older than her three children, did not consider that it was her job as a mother, to step up and appear strong for the sake of her three children (“I being the eldest child felt that it was my job to step up and do all I could“).
Aislynn felt that her mother was hurt and that it was her job to make her mother feel safe and happy; her mother did not notice that her daughter was hurt and needed to feel safe and happy (“I felt that my mother was hurt after my father left, I saw her as vulnerable and felt that it was my job to make her feel safe and happy“).
Where her mother failed to step up, Aislynn did.
“Indeed, I did become angry… Angry that I felt I had to fill his shoes. Angry that I felt I had to step up and protect my mother and take care of my sister. I felt he robbed me of my childhood because I felt I had to look after my mom and sister” – Aislynn would not have had to step up, to protect her mother and take care of her sister if her mother appeared strong and in charge. If her mother took charge, she would have given Aislyn specific, spelled out, limited chores, so that Aislynn wouldn’t do too much and get overwhelmed, robbed of her childhood.
“Even now… When my mother and stepdad are mad at each other I always do my best to make sure my 8 year old brother is not around” – Aislynn made sure that her younger brother was not around to listen to his mother and step father quarrel, protecting him from witnessing his mother’s distress; something that Aislynn mother did not do for Aislynn when she talked about her childhood pains and onward mistreatment by her brothers.
“I spoil my brother and try to fill in what my mother and stepdad cannot provide for him. For example, I’m in college, full time, and I make sure my schedule always falls accordingly to my brother’s needs. I am the one who picks him up from school and take care of him while my parents are at work… I make sure to always tell him that he needs to come for me if there is ever anything wrong… maybe this all stems from me feeling like I didn’t get all those things as a child… I do not want my brother to grow up alone” – you grew up alone, without strong adults supporting you emotionally, without your needs for safety and love being attended to, without anyone to tell when you were bullied at school, etc.
“What amazes me most is how as a child one could possibly think ‘my mother is weak, I need to protect her and be strong for her.’ It amazes me because if we think about it, there really isn’t much help I could have provided for her in the case of a robbery, financial distress, etc..” – final thoughts, later.
anita
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