hi everyone

It is been a long time since I have written here. last I share that I met a man that I think is the one and was overtginking that what if I do something wrong to mess up the relationship. I dated him since february current year. our relationship was never exciting, we meet we talk and we sleep together, we dont go out a lot, we are very dull and no color. He is a school teacher and get off work earlier, and almost everyday after work he is out with friends drinking. I have adressed the issue with him but he always say they were just relaxing after work and no harm is done. that relaxation happens everytime and I come out as always complaining.

I considered breaking up, but am I always just walking away from relationships when they are not going the way I want? do I stay and try to work things out? do I just wait and see or I am fussing about nothing or am better without him and his everyday drinking. I grow up with a father that drinks a lot and do not want to experiance a drunkered for the rest of my life. I am considering being single for sometime yet again I already tried being single for a year. I feel unlucky when it comes to relationships and I always believe I am the one who is impatient, who mess up the relationship, all my exes get girlfriends after they broke up with me and their relationships lasts long. I have been on high and low emotionally, one this day I am super hapy amd the next day I am very down with no partucular reason.

I would love to have a stable relationship I am very tired of changing men. anything that may help me I appreciate

much love!