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  • #64941
    Rose Tattoo
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    Please, please don’t give her this letter the way it’s written. It feels like you’re dredging up past pain and trying to show her why she was wrong. If you’re getting married to her, I assume you two have had conversations about what happened, and hopefully both owned up to your parts in it. If you haven’t said what needs to be said, perhaps you should speak in person, before your wedding, so make sure there’s no resentment still hidden away. This letter seems very bitter and full of pain, and very blaming of her.

    Before you start composing a ‘closure’ letter on the eve of your new life together, I’d suggest asking yourself: what do you want to accomplish? Do you want her to know that she was wrong to do what she did? Why? What would that solve?

    Do you want to be right, or do you want to be happy?

    I’m not saying you two shouldn’t talk about that time or that you shouldn’t share your thoughts with her, but this letter just seems to open the wound again. If you still have resentment about the past, perhaps you should wait to get married until you’ve worked through it as a couple. It certainly seems from this letter that you do.

    At the very least, have a private conversation with her where you tell her you still have pain around what happened, rather than giving her a letter like this right before her wedding day.

    Ask yourself: are you read to let go of the pain of that time, to embrace the joy of your new life together? Or will you always want to make her pay?

    A letter on her wedding day should be about what you want to accomplish with your partnership, not dredging up something she did “wrong” in your estimation. Have you considered that that painful time and the time apart could have actually taught you both important lessons, and that it could actually strengthen your relationship if you reframe it?

    Whatever you do, please don’t enter into this marriage feeling justified in believing she did you wrong back then. A marriage that starts out that way doesn’t have a very good chance of being a happy marriage, in my opinion.

    Good luck to you both!

    #64945
    Josie
    Participant

    What are you trying to accomplish? To me, it doesn’t sound like you have moved on from the events of the past. This sounds like you want her to feel your pain. I can appreciate you feeling you need to be honest, but sometimes you have to go back to these 3 questions. Is it true? Is it kind? Is it necessary?

    If writing these words help you move on, great. Write them out and burn them. But I feel that giving your fiance this letter will revisit and prolong the pain you seem to still be feeling. I wouldn’t personally read past the first paragraph. Who wants to have their past mistakes thrown in their face?

    I worry I’m being a bit harsh here but ask yourself what this will give you?

    #64958
    Gracie
    Participant

    Wow, you are not ready to be married.
    I can see that she, your fiance, hurt you very bad, I am sorry for that…but if you are still hurt to the point of writing a letter like that to her you are not ready at all for such a commitment.
    It sounds like something you’d write to someone upon breaking up, or to your worst enemy..not to your fiance before your wedding day.
    The problem here is, these are your true feelings about this woman.
    I agree with Josie that it sounds like you want “the love of your life” to feel pain.
    Not only would I not give her this letter, I would not marry her..not with feelings like that hidden inside.

    #64960
    CM
    Participant

    Rose/Josie, You both are correct in your statements. We have had the conversation and she said it was the biggest mistake of her life. I don’t know why I carry this anger inside after so man years. I am trying to let it go so I can have a healthy relationship with her. That experience and the life she had made her appreciate me and gave her some self worth. It is just painful to know she gave her prime to a old man who emotionally abused her and manipulated her with money. She is absolutely such a wonderful and caring person and I know it has to do with the hardship she brought upon herself. I’m going to let it all go, it has been discussed and she is not the same person as she was. I will continue to pray and live in love and light. There is nothing loving about my letter and she definitely does not need to read it. Thank you both for your responses.

    #64965
    Jade
    Participant

    I think it says a lot that I was confused by your post, because it sounded like you were writing a letter to an ex, but you said you are marrying this woman which made no sense considering the extremely resentful and hurt content of your letter. You are not ready to marry this woman. But if you do decide to go ahead with marriage, I suggest you do some individual and couples counselling to help move past your experiences and into a loving partnership.

    #64985
    Matt
    Participant

    CM,

    Wow, truly wonderful. You really open up, pour out your feelings, all the pain and hurt. Great work! Now that its out, consider getting closure by burning the letter. Print it out, crumple it up into a fireproof bowl, cover it in oil, and offer it up to the universe for healing “May the words be carried to the heart of the cosmic mother, and may all of us connected to these feelings find freedom, healing”.

    Its normal to have old hurts come up, especially as we become more open, vulnerable to our partner. But don’t poop in her face, ya know? She doesn’t need to read that, be dragged through the muck of your old cankered pains for you to be healed. Healing comes as you let go, realize you both were idiots back then, and have grown a lot since. It makes sense to want to get it out, be free, but her heart is tender, friend.

    As you burn the hurt, give it back, forgive whatever caused the old mud, its OK to keep the good things you learned. “I like this and this, don’t like that and that.” So, try to grow what you do like, erode what you don’t. If you find yourself dwelling again, write it all down again, print it out, burn it again. Consider: that’s a really pretty wedding dress she’s wearing, no need for mud to be thrown on it, just because she acted poorly years ago.

    With warmth,
    Matt

    #64986
    CM
    Participant

    Matt,

    Thank you so very much for your kind words and acknowledging the depth of betrayal I felt. You, as with everyone else is right, I must let this go and stop dwelling on a decision that everyone regretted. I will take your advice and do as you suggested, thank youfor taking the time to respond.

    CM

    #64990
    Matt
    Participant

    That’s great! Also, consider deleting that letter from your computer, and empty the recycle bin. 🙂 That’s a real heart-wounder were she to accidentally come across it, so clean your trail. Plus, rereading it yourself can re-inspire old wounds, like scratching at a scab. Be done with it. 🙂

    #64998
    Big blue
    Participant

    Hi CM,

    I did not read more than a few lines of your post before scrolling down. The size of the post tells me you have a lot that you want her to *listen to.* The problem with that is that it’s one sided. You need to have conversations. With her more than with yourself. As others said, talk with her. Based on reading a couple comments from others, rather than dwell on past pains and grievances, learn to let that go and focus on your common values and moving forward.

    Big blue

    #65054
    Anonymous
    Inactive

    Wow…this was so powerful and brought tears to my eyes. I could feel your pain illustrated in this letter. I’m so sorry you felt so much hurt, devastation and resentment for so long,but now that you have written it all out, just store it away. This letter of closure is for you not her. No one ever deserves to feel like they hate their life so much they would rather commit suicide.I can see this older man truly affected BOTH of your self worthiness. You have to continue to remind yourself you did not choose what happened to you, and it was a dark place but it’s all over now. Her actions hurt you, but she was hurt in the process too. All of that pain is over. Your life is not that way anymore. Let yourself be happy, let her love you the way you need, let her heal your broken heart, let her know how much you missed her and how you thought of her every day and that she is your soulmate. You are going to marry your soul mate and allow yourself to enjoy what you have wanted and deserved for so long. Those prime years were not wasted,it was invested time where you learned about yourself, as did she. Let the two of you be happy and by reminding her of everything she did wrong will only keep YOU in that depression. Store those memories away and continue to replace them with loving thoughts. ALLOW those holes in you to be filled with happiness. Sometimes when you are sad for so long you forget how to be genuinely happy again. You love this woman and for that reason a lone let the past be the past, this letter is not for her. You will be very happy from now on.

    #65072
    CM
    Participant

    Becky- I loved your response and how it made me really stop and think. You brought another view of the situation that I overlooked because of my pain. Thank you for taking the time to write me and I appreciate your words.

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