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January 21, 2015 at 1:06 pm #71736
Staples 400
ParticipantHi Alexis. I’ll just be straight forward and honest with you. If one of my daughters every came to me asking for advice a situation like this, I’d scream RUN!!
First of all, it sounds like you are ready for some companionship — and that is great! There is nothing wrong with wanting someone to connect to. However, be mindful of your need and be aware that there are many eligible men who would love you and love your daughter. You don’t ne
As far as “Boy” is concerned, I’d urge you to slow down and reevaluate things. You are considering a relationship with someone who you’ve just acknowledge has a “million faults”. What if those faults never go away? What if you cannot change him? Do you want a relationship or an improvement project? While humor is an awesome trait to bring to a relationship, you need more than a good laugh to be successful.
Again, I’d urge you to take things slow with Boy or *any* other person for that matter. You sound like great catch. Don’t settle. Explore your options (safely) and maintain a good sized buffer on your heart. I’ll speak from experience and say that I pretty much wanted to marry every single woman I every met, not because all those women were marriage material, but because I wanted to be a husband. People like us are more vulnerable to abuse so you need the buffer. Protect your heart at all costs. Make sure you think long term. Don’t let your heart and your feelings get you into circumstances that you ill later regret. You are only 24. There are lots of eligible bachelors for you to choose from 🙂January 21, 2015 at 1:13 pm #71737Elizabeth Wilkens-Plumley
ParticipantSweetie, sweetie, Alexis I was once in your place. He’s unavailable, ask yourself why you want an unavailable man or better yet ask a therapist. Suppose you do go down that road, and you beg and plead and persuade and “fight for what you want” with an addict. How are you gonna feel when he never moves beyond entry level work? when he DUI’s with your baby in the car? when he kills somebody? How are you gonna feel when your much older and you’ve never really felt loved in your relationship? When your kids have never had stability? Take care of yourself, well, and let this one go, you deserve better. On some level Boy, probably knows that.
“There is no such thing as a soulmate…and who would want there to be? I don’t want half of a shared soul. I want my own damn soul.”
Ely in Naomi and Ely’s No Kiss List Rachel Cohn and David Levithan”
― Rachel Cohn, Naomi and Ely’s No Kiss ListJanuary 21, 2015 at 2:56 pm #71740Yue
ParticipantHi Alexis,
I agree with Staples and Raventrue (love that quote by the way) about keeping your distance. If you enter a relationship hoping to change that person, it means that you are not able to accept them for who they are even if the change is for their own good. If someone is not ready to change, which appears to be the case here, you are going to be frustrated in all the things he does (e.g. drink driving, ignoring your or just being drunk most of the time) while he gets frustrated for you trying to change him. Usually the relationship ends up as some form of co-dependency with lots criticism and attempts to fix problems.
Though it is true that some partners can help through an addiction period, the person being helped needs to have a lot of trust in the helper to overcome feelings of inadequacy, weakness and judgement. This is especially difficult for men as we are not raised to be emotionally vulnerable. If you want to persue a long term relationship with this person, let him be so that he can work his own way out of his addiction. Who knows, he may become the person you wish him to be all on his own and you two may reconnect sometime in the future. Otherwise, don’t spend years fixing someone else’s problem because no matter how much you invest, they are not going to get there unless they want to.
January 21, 2015 at 10:28 pm #71772christine
ParticipantAlexis,
I am so sorry for the situation that you are in – but the answer does not lie in staying with him or helping him through his problems. In fact, he needs to be willing to make the changes in himself first. When you first meet someone after being single for so long and it feels like things are magical and wonderful, it’s really hard to pull yourself back into reality and confront all the very real problems that exist within your relationship. It is so easy to believe that all of the major problems and differences between you are the result of “opposites attract” and it is so romantic to think of things as being meant to be. Alexis, I know it hurts now, but you must, absolutely MUST break off all contact with him until he heals on his own, for your own good, his own good, and for your child.
Boy’s flaws need to be worked out by himself before you can embark upon any relationship with him. Trying to fix his problems FOR him will NOT WORK. Love is not words, love is action and love is selfless. And blowing you off, cowardly trying to pin the breakup on you and his unresolved addiction, those are not the actions of love.
Staying in this situation, embedding yourself in his problems is only going to lead to more heartbreak and greater hurt for you in the long run. Love yourself and be thankful that you got out of this situation while you still could.
January 22, 2015 at 8:47 am #71787Alexis
ParticipantThank you so much everyone!
Yesterday I had a moment of weakness and made plans with him for after work. Paint by Numbers, wine and a movie. When I got off work I called him and lo and behold-he was too tired. I cried home. I paint by numbered and drank wine and watched a movie with my sister after my daughter went to bed and had a really great time anyway. You are all right. It was nice to experience a relationship again, but I deserve better. I am glad I left. I do still care very much for him though, and I hope that he does recover and who knows… I’m still allowed to be a romantic!
When I started dating I went on 20 something dates and met so many wonderful people, beautiful men, smart men, rich men, not so rich men, artistic men, whatever, but this Boy was the only one I wanted to pursue. There is just something different. He isn’t the prettiest, the smartest, the tallest, the most packed, the richest, the most artistic, the most alluring, the sexiest…he just feels right.
Him blowing me off yesterday was maybe what I really needed to cement this. It doesn’t feel right to not be respected or loved. Christine, your words really hit home. I’m not sure whether I will be cutting off complete contact, but…I sort of had an epiphany or woke up from a slumber of stupidity last night, I can handle myself now. Hopefully this feeling lasts.
Thanks, everyone 🙂
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